Great Day!!
I had an awsome day today. I got eight whole hours of sleep last night and woke up in the best mood. D would be so proud. (she is annoyingly cheerful in the morning) Anyway, My class let out early and I went to the gym and worked out for an hour. After that, I showered and went to my internship. They aren't mad at me cuz I made up a total bullshit lie about why I missed the last 3 weeks. When I got out of there I learned that my mothers cancer is in full remitiom. The doctors told us that the chances of this were slim to none. Then, my stepdad told me that he is gonna pay for me to get my flat tire fixed!! Patrick called me and wants me to go to a concert with him in hm...guess where...New Orleans!! The last and greatest part of my day (other than my mom's news, of course) was a call from D and an hour long chat. I think I missed her the most today. Everyone is at Big Kahuna's now and I am stuck at work but its ok cuz I have had an awsome day. I don't even have class tomorrow!! But it never fails, whenever I have a great day or week, I have a horrible one soon after. I guess it has to balance out.
I have done some more thinking about she and I. I'm just gonna give it time and give her space to figure herself out. She is a creature of habit and all this went really fast. My worst fear is that I will decide to put my whole heart into this and she will decide that we are to different. It's worth it to me. What I feel for her is worth taking a chance on being hurt. Love is pain, right? I'm afraid that because we aren't seeing each other everyday, she will convince herself that we are too different. She will convince herself that it wouldn't have worked anyway and she should spare me now. She knows thats bullshit but people do stupid things. She already told me that its scary how much she cares for me. I have just realized that I analyze stuff too much. Note to self...stop analyzing shit!! L8er...
I have done some more thinking about she and I. I'm just gonna give it time and give her space to figure herself out. She is a creature of habit and all this went really fast. My worst fear is that I will decide to put my whole heart into this and she will decide that we are to different. It's worth it to me. What I feel for her is worth taking a chance on being hurt. Love is pain, right? I'm afraid that because we aren't seeing each other everyday, she will convince herself that we are too different. She will convince herself that it wouldn't have worked anyway and she should spare me now. She knows thats bullshit but people do stupid things. She already told me that its scary how much she cares for me. I have just realized that I analyze stuff too much. Note to self...stop analyzing shit!! L8er...