don't get excited, this isn't a return to lj or anything
I just have a lot on my mind. I'm not going back to pjc next semester due to the fact that I absolutely hate it. Scholarship Shmolarship, I don't want to be there. So now I have to figure out what I'm going to do next semester. I'm interning for Britt Young right now, which I lovelovelove. Cody and Samir are interning too, and that's so much fun. But that will be over next year and I just don't know where I should be or what I should do. I really think I might want to take some time off and go do some mission work. Or just go... I don't know. I'm still with Max so that will inevitabely have an impact on whatever I decide to do, even though I want to make up my mind independently, free from all attachments here in Pensacola. I thought about applying to take a discipleship training course with YWAM and then maybe trying to go to University of the Nations. But I'm not sure that being a missionary is what I really want to do. Part of me wants to go to cosmetology school and study skin care. It's so frustrating being on completely opposite ends of the spectrum. Whatev, I just need to figure something out.
Max and I are back to normal and that's great. Now that I think about it, we've been together for a really freakin long time. Even if we weren't exclusive we've been at least some form of together for over a year now. That's weird..but good. He's so great. He was cracking me up Saturday night. He lives in Jacksonville and I'm here, and I was getting ready to go to some party where I didn't know anyone except Han and Sarah and I was brushing my teeth while I was on the phone with him. He said "Are you brushing your teeth??!!! WHY?!! Whose life am I going to have to take?? Who's going to be smelling your mouth?? Your mouth should smell like a dead snake until I get home!!" Then we argued about who had the best pair of cowboy boots when we were little. I love that we can say crap like that all the time. He makes me laugh so much.
I need a job so bad right now. I get paid for interning but I need a real job. I haven't had a job since August 2006. I quit prolegal to start school, and I was a nanny for a while but that's not a real job. Now I need one for real.
Crap scrubs is on and I'm missing it!!!