I owe a certain beta-Muse thanks and praise to the Heavens...
...for her time, feedback, ideas, generosity, patience, gentle wit, marvelous penetrating insights and for her keen Eye (intangible, unexplanable, indispensible) and above all, for helping guide me to my very first 1st place award (!!) as well as 3rd place and Most Creative honors at slayerstillness Challenge 43; as well as a Mod's Choice's Award at whedon_elite Challenge ( Read more... )
you mean the icons from my latest dump right? the ones that were all pastel-y and pretty - buffy on the phone and the blurry fighting shot (which i still love and still reminds me of oceans) ? bc i see what you've done with them and i love it.
and DUDE I AM SO UNSKILLED. i fumble and hope for the best i'm just incredibly lucky as an artist - things tend to just fall into place (something i'd appreciate happening irl once and a while /sighs)
kelsey is a goddess and i don't deserve her fabulousness in my life and yet
i'm. i'm same old. faxing (yes! FAXING from my mum's work) surgeons for updates, not dealing at all with real life, making myself get out of bed to make therapy appointments, trying to sell writings so i have something to show for my reclusiveness. et cetera, et cetera, et cetera (but omg good for you working hard at your job! even if the energy lull is meh)
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Srsly, I assumed email inbox notification. (Which is a very off and on thing btw and I guess always will be.)
you mean the icons from my latest dump right? the ones that were all pastel-y and pretty - buffy on the phone and the blurry fighting shot
Exactly *points to user pic*. I'm really pleased with how this one turned out. The entire icon was softer, blurrier, but I sharpened the details around Buffy's face because I liked how that balanced the whirl of her hair.
(something i'd appreciate happening irl once and a while /sighs)
RIGHT? I am working now so something did "fall into place" (never mind the place is CAH-RAZY-town), but I suspect that's why we have our passions, hobbies and habits - maintaining the illusion of an iota of control. (Hey it beats illicit drug use and bulimia, right? Which reminds me - are you taking care of yourself, hon? Regular meals and all that?)
And yes you DESERVE every bit of fabulousness that comes your way and then some. Many many times that amount.
Faxing, ha, what's that? I shouldn't laugh, my sweetie's surgeon's office a a MAJOR hospital takes faxes but doesn't accept attachments via email. I can remember when faxing was the latest thing and no it seems old-fashioned.
making myself get out of bed to make therapy appointments, trying to sell writings so i have something to show for my reclusiveness.
Good for you! These are important things, don't sell yourself short. I've never sold a story or even tried because I was too shy (I sold some beaded jewelry years ago that I made and that's it). Pat yourself on the back for the work you are doing sweetheart.
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if you like it enough to use it i totally encourage you to tweak away! it looks really nice <3
are you taking care of yourself, hon? Regular meals and all that?
two meals and irregular snacking, which is like, as healthy as i get so that's . something.
Good for you! These are important things, don't sell yourself short. I've never sold a story or even tried because I was too shy (I sold some beaded jewelry years ago that I made and that's it). Pat yourself on the back for the work you are doing sweetheart.
I've so far been rejected twice, been completely ignored by 3 publications and had a haiku printed - but I'm nothing if not stubborn. so. we carry on. looking into something focused on speculative poems (/prosepoems) about isolation which is. in theory anyway, my speciality so, here's hoping
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Thanks! (We are talking about my Helpless icon, right? That's what I was talking about, I haven't touched yours.)
two meals and irregular snacking, which is like, as healthy as i get so that's . something.
One meal up on me, actually. And that is something. (Some people eat several small meals during the day instead of a few large ones so that might be more your body's preference?) I wish I could say I'm not binging but - I am and I do and yes, if I ate regular meals I wouldn't binge.
i've so far been rejected twice, been completely ignored by 3 publications and had a haiku printed - but I'm nothing if not stubborn.
Oh sweetie only three? Not to minimize but I know folks who have been doing this for years, three publishers is just starting. And congratulations on the haiku, I can't claim that and i know a lot of writers who can't either!
Keep it up the good work, Lucy; I know it's discouraging but you are doing good healthy things for yourself - remember to pat yourself on the back for what you achieve.
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i've tried the small meals thing but i bc my stomach doesn't work right i get full up on one or two and then don't eat enough. i think coping like i am now is what works best for me when i'm still ill. (oh bby i know it's hard to do the regular thing, espesh if you're getting used to working again, but try your best to stay healthy okay??)
Oh sweetie only three? Not to minimize but I know folks who have been doing this for years, three publishers is just starting. And congratulations on the haiku, I can't claim that and i know a lot of writers who can't either!
OH i'm not trying to sound all down and out at all! But i've only been doing this for a few months and im very aware that it's a long road ahead. it's just. it's not fun being rejected when you're only just starting and don't have the stablest of moods, but i'm no where near ready to give up yet!
I'm trying, and that's all i can ever do
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