why?
why is it so hard for him to understand? why is it so hard for him to understand? why is it so hard for him to understand? why is it so hard for him to understand? why is it so hard for him to understand? why is it so hard for him to understand? why is it so hard for him to understand? why is it so hard for him to understand? why is it so hard for him to understand? why is it so hard for him to understand?
he doesn't see how everything hurts, what is left of me. im trying to be better as fast as i can without killing myself and maikng myself sick, but everythihng hurts and he doesnt see y. i have asked him to do so many things, because they hurt so bad and if i did them he would be upset and hurt too, but he doesnt get that. jared doesnt seem to see y i am like this, y i feel like this, y i act like this. he has given me so many reasons to doubt him. i dont bring up old stuff anymore, just only recent cuz i want to get over it, and for me, that is talking about it, trying to get him to realize its wrong.
today, i told him i wont be as sensitive to things anymore, basically toughen up, but i always showed him every emotion i had because i thought he would understand, but i guess i cant. i said i was changing quickly, but he said "you're sure taking your sweet time." that made me so upset. it took him a year and a half to become a half way decent boyfriend, one who shows he loves his fiance like he says. i have promished to get everything he has done for the past two months, and thats everything, and there is alot. i changed quicker then he ever did. oh well.
why doesnt he understand though? for now on, if i ask once, because it hurts and he does it again and gets mad at me again for having certain feelings about it, then im going to do whatever it was, because he seems to think it is ok, so that means i can right?
he doesn't see how everything hurts, what is left of me. im trying to be better as fast as i can without killing myself and maikng myself sick, but everythihng hurts and he doesnt see y. i have asked him to do so many things, because they hurt so bad and if i did them he would be upset and hurt too, but he doesnt get that. jared doesnt seem to see y i am like this, y i feel like this, y i act like this. he has given me so many reasons to doubt him. i dont bring up old stuff anymore, just only recent cuz i want to get over it, and for me, that is talking about it, trying to get him to realize its wrong.
today, i told him i wont be as sensitive to things anymore, basically toughen up, but i always showed him every emotion i had because i thought he would understand, but i guess i cant. i said i was changing quickly, but he said "you're sure taking your sweet time." that made me so upset. it took him a year and a half to become a half way decent boyfriend, one who shows he loves his fiance like he says. i have promished to get everything he has done for the past two months, and thats everything, and there is alot. i changed quicker then he ever did. oh well.
why doesnt he understand though? for now on, if i ask once, because it hurts and he does it again and gets mad at me again for having certain feelings about it, then im going to do whatever it was, because he seems to think it is ok, so that means i can right?