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To Jared,
Yes, i know im weird, but in a special way. ive been so moody though lately. happy to sad, sad to happy, happy to angry, angry to sad, and now blah. right now me and jared arent on such good terms, and we almost broke up yesterday and monday. i dont know what is going on. its all my fault. i start the fights becuase of how i feel and what i think. im scared of gettign hurt again. he says im beating a dead horse (metaphorically) by saying do you blame me. he is way beyond me with his sorrys. im tired and scared, and he doesnt understand that. he tells me to put everything behind me, to let go and never bring things up again. well im sorry, trust me, im trying, trying really hard to forget things, but something will happen to bring it back up again. i wont say "do you blame me" instead ill say dont i have a reason to feel like this. im sorry jared that it hurt me for the things you did. you say that when i bring these things up that im just making an excuse to hurt you or fight with you. 'oh yes jared, i want to fight, i want to hurt you' (i hope you realize that this is sarcasm). i want to work things out, but you dont want to. yourre the one that doesnt want to talk about it, and you say i dont and i dont want to get over it. i think you have us switched around. i understand that these things are my fault, and im trying to get over them. you deserve better, someone who isnt so picky and noisy and so down all of the time. no matter what i think, how i feel, or what i say, we'll fight or its nothing to you and you wont care. sorry for the way i feel....
you are my darkness, you are my sunshine, but no matter, i will always love you......
yours truly,
Lacey N. T.
Yes, i know im weird, but in a special way. ive been so moody though lately. happy to sad, sad to happy, happy to angry, angry to sad, and now blah. right now me and jared arent on such good terms, and we almost broke up yesterday and monday. i dont know what is going on. its all my fault. i start the fights becuase of how i feel and what i think. im scared of gettign hurt again. he says im beating a dead horse (metaphorically) by saying do you blame me. he is way beyond me with his sorrys. im tired and scared, and he doesnt understand that. he tells me to put everything behind me, to let go and never bring things up again. well im sorry, trust me, im trying, trying really hard to forget things, but something will happen to bring it back up again. i wont say "do you blame me" instead ill say dont i have a reason to feel like this. im sorry jared that it hurt me for the things you did. you say that when i bring these things up that im just making an excuse to hurt you or fight with you. 'oh yes jared, i want to fight, i want to hurt you' (i hope you realize that this is sarcasm). i want to work things out, but you dont want to. yourre the one that doesnt want to talk about it, and you say i dont and i dont want to get over it. i think you have us switched around. i understand that these things are my fault, and im trying to get over them. you deserve better, someone who isnt so picky and noisy and so down all of the time. no matter what i think, how i feel, or what i say, we'll fight or its nothing to you and you wont care. sorry for the way i feel....
you are my darkness, you are my sunshine, but no matter, i will always love you......
yours truly,
Lacey N. T.