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i've lost so many friends and family in the past two years it's insane. and what's more insane is that all of these people that i'm so heartbroken over... i didn't even make huge efforts to spend more time with.
i feel like a horrible person and like i don't have the right to feel so sad over people i so easily drift away from.
well... in other news i've decided to stop holding grudges. and want to be a better person. someone who doesn't talk bad about people... i do it all the time and i envy people who don't feel the need to be like that :( so silly but i find it hard, and want to STOP. and i want to not give people a reason to say anything bad about me! i want to be kind and amazing :(
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i feel like a horrible person and like i don't have the right to feel so sad over people i so easily drift away from.
well... in other news i've decided to stop holding grudges. and want to be a better person. someone who doesn't talk bad about people... i do it all the time and i envy people who don't feel the need to be like that :( so silly but i find it hard, and want to STOP. and i want to not give people a reason to say anything bad about me! i want to be kind and amazing :(
i ache :(
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