guh
why is it that i feel guilty so much, i just wish i could make everyone happy, and for everyone to be happy. i mean, dont get me wrong, i like hearing whats wrong, and that such forth of things, cause i know we dont live in a perfect world, its good to hear the bad sometimes to improve upon. right now things look pretty good for me, 'spite how certian things are going. like, i love my girlfriend right now so much, and i've met her family, some of them, still waiting to meet a few more, and i've met 2-3 of her friends, they all are really cool, and seem to like me. but because of we met online, kinna wanted to do the double date thing, like, she had a friend, and i had a friend, and it started off pretty good ^.^ but things went sour, and that was cause of my friend. i mean, he's my friend, and he's my homie and ima stick by him, cause he sticks by me, but i feel guilty you know, because i brought him, cause he was single, and i feel like an ass for putting kristi's friend jennie through it, and also, on another note, i felt kinna crappy tonight, cause, i relize that i dont call kristi enough, and she calls me, i just cant answer sometimes, or im not around when the phone calls, i know i should call her, and im going to start calling her, today we were suppose to go to the gym, but we didnt, cause, she got off at 2, and she said she was going to go home and take a nap at 2 to 6, and from there, i thought she was going to call me to tell me to come up, and we would leave for the gym, but i knew i sh ould of called regaurdless. i feel like im letting her down, dissaspointing her, i really dont wanna do that, she makes me so happy, i feel great when im around her, eh, i just uno what to do. i guess its all just a learning process im going to have to learn.