what ever....
I can remember a place I used to go.
Chrysanthemums of white,
They seemed so beautiful.
I can remember I searched for the amaranth.
I'd shut my eyes eyes to see.
Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished ones.
I knew they would appear...saw not a single one.
Oh, how I smiled then, waiting so patiently.
I'd make a wish and bleed.
While I waited
I was wasting away.
While I waited
I was wasted away.
I can remember... dreamt them so vividly.
Soft creatures draped in white,
light kisses gracing me.
I can remember when I first realized
dreams were the only place to see them.
While I waited
I was wasting away.
Hope was wasting away.
Faith was wasting away.
I was wasting away.
I never, never wanted this.
I always wanted to believe
but from the start I'd been deceived.
I never, never wanted this.
Inside a crumbling effigy,
so dies all innocence.
But you promised me…
all of this searching, and waiting, i still have no one i can go to, and say i love, and hold them, and for them to come to me and the same, its been sooo long, my previous relationships where good, but wherent long enough, the time i was with 'em, i cherished every minute of it, only to end up here with memories. i have nothing to show, i have noone to go to, and say " i love you " too :/ why is it that, i cant ever seem to find someone who likes me back as much? i nean, is it that hard, i see more and more people, everyday, with there "signifigant other" and i put on a smile, and talk to 'em, but its hurting inside, because, i know the feeling and miss it. its one of the greatest feelings i've ever had, and i miss it soooo much... why me.. why?