I guess it's been a while...
Not sure if anyone comes on here anymore...
But I guess it's safe, heehee.
So, it's 1am. Husband thinks I'm on ebay. I guess if it makes him feel better...? I can't sleep - and I'm sure that has a lot to do with the two cans of Red Bull I drank about an hour ago. They did have a bit of vodka in them, but not a lot. Obviously not enough to help me by countering the effects of caffene and other junk... Haha.
I can't seem to just get drunk anymore. I'm sure it's a good thing. I'm sure that the crap that would come out of my mouth now would be worse than six months ago. I really do (mostly) enjoy being married.
Doctor told me I'm stuck at home for at least a month now. I'm not really happy about this, but that's just another thing to add to the list. And the cursed thing is that I have no income, and I can't even get another job to tide me over as I'm on 'stress leave'. Stupid thing.
And I can't really get WorkCover either because I'm sure that'll mean that Alex will get fired. And that is the absolute last thing that I want to happen. Really.
Applying for other work isn't going so well either. There's not a lot going at the moment that I can do, but I'm getting desperate. Thinking really seriously about just burning my bridges, but alas I have a house, a car and a phone that I have to think about. And although I would survive a month of so, I do have to eat at some point.
I'm sick of work putting the guilt trip on me. I'm really sick of Alex doing it - he's the worst because he knows it will work. It's so annoying, but there's nothing I wouldn't do for him and he knows it. (Except for the that kind of stuff, but that's not an option even if I was interested, what with being married and all... [Thank God])
So I'm still stuck in the same stupid job with the same irritating people doing the same stupid extended duties and I'm just a sucker.
But I'm feeling heaps better now. Maybe I should do this more often, haha.
Going to try and sleep now. Note to self: don't drink Red Bull before bed.
But I guess it's safe, heehee.
So, it's 1am. Husband thinks I'm on ebay. I guess if it makes him feel better...? I can't sleep - and I'm sure that has a lot to do with the two cans of Red Bull I drank about an hour ago. They did have a bit of vodka in them, but not a lot. Obviously not enough to help me by countering the effects of caffene and other junk... Haha.
I can't seem to just get drunk anymore. I'm sure it's a good thing. I'm sure that the crap that would come out of my mouth now would be worse than six months ago. I really do (mostly) enjoy being married.
Doctor told me I'm stuck at home for at least a month now. I'm not really happy about this, but that's just another thing to add to the list. And the cursed thing is that I have no income, and I can't even get another job to tide me over as I'm on 'stress leave'. Stupid thing.
And I can't really get WorkCover either because I'm sure that'll mean that Alex will get fired. And that is the absolute last thing that I want to happen. Really.
Applying for other work isn't going so well either. There's not a lot going at the moment that I can do, but I'm getting desperate. Thinking really seriously about just burning my bridges, but alas I have a house, a car and a phone that I have to think about. And although I would survive a month of so, I do have to eat at some point.
I'm sick of work putting the guilt trip on me. I'm really sick of Alex doing it - he's the worst because he knows it will work. It's so annoying, but there's nothing I wouldn't do for him and he knows it. (Except for the that kind of stuff, but that's not an option even if I was interested, what with being married and all... [Thank God])
So I'm still stuck in the same stupid job with the same irritating people doing the same stupid extended duties and I'm just a sucker.
But I'm feeling heaps better now. Maybe I should do this more often, haha.
Going to try and sleep now. Note to self: don't drink Red Bull before bed.