(no subject)
Occaisionally I like to get up early and mop. Everything. Well, the patio and the kitchen. I plan on putting away my clothes tonight when I get back from San Diego. (It means whale's vagina). I had to scrub the patio though, that was a crappy surprise. Hopefully with that clean, we'll stop tracking all the dirt onto the kitchen floor. Wow, I sound so ridiculously boring, it's amazing. But it's a big deal for Elisa to start learning how to clean lol!
I am still frustrated, and frustrated with some people. But in my newfound masculinity, I'm going to say "Bitches ain't shit." Yeah, apparently I am a man. Well not physically, just feel like a stereotypical male these days.
John-David always talks about how his girlfriend whines and asks him to go with her for stupid shit, and we laugh, and he says "don't tell me you girls don't do that." I don't think I've been as bad as his girlfriend since I got over being psycho with Paul. And I also apparently don't do long term either, so I've never been in a relationship that's gotten to that point, the one where I by default become crazy? Anyway, I brought this up because it got me thinking to how I've behaved in prior relationships, and what I would want to happen in a future relationship. If I ever gave in again and got back into a relationship, it would have to be for someone who will be a stereotypical "man" and take care of me. It makes sense, because it's basically the relationship model I grew up watching. My dad is the head of the family, my dad is this figure who has a role that is never questioned. My mom is the heart of the relationship and of the family. She is the one that sees my dad when he is emotionally open and she in turns shows that to us all the time. It's strange to try to put into words why our family works the way it does, but I like it.
I also like not being in something that I could get completely caught up in. It's rather nice.
OKay, San Diego trip.
<3
elisa
I am still frustrated, and frustrated with some people. But in my newfound masculinity, I'm going to say "Bitches ain't shit." Yeah, apparently I am a man. Well not physically, just feel like a stereotypical male these days.
John-David always talks about how his girlfriend whines and asks him to go with her for stupid shit, and we laugh, and he says "don't tell me you girls don't do that." I don't think I've been as bad as his girlfriend since I got over being psycho with Paul. And I also apparently don't do long term either, so I've never been in a relationship that's gotten to that point, the one where I by default become crazy? Anyway, I brought this up because it got me thinking to how I've behaved in prior relationships, and what I would want to happen in a future relationship. If I ever gave in again and got back into a relationship, it would have to be for someone who will be a stereotypical "man" and take care of me. It makes sense, because it's basically the relationship model I grew up watching. My dad is the head of the family, my dad is this figure who has a role that is never questioned. My mom is the heart of the relationship and of the family. She is the one that sees my dad when he is emotionally open and she in turns shows that to us all the time. It's strange to try to put into words why our family works the way it does, but I like it.
I also like not being in something that I could get completely caught up in. It's rather nice.
OKay, San Diego trip.
<3
elisa