Day Five
Things are happening way too quickly for me to deal with..I feel quite weak and helpless, and I don't want to but I don't have a choice..I know I can't fight whatever is coming for me, especially not with my head the way it is lately..it hurts..
Rath nii-san and Sera went home tonight..she and I..got into a little fight..though I will say now, I was not myself; I do not even remember all of the things I did, though I know it was horrible. I really hurt her, and as mad as I was..I'm still sorry. It was my anger that fueled this incident and left me so easy to controlled by..whom ever it is that seems to have gained power over me..luckily, Riyen-sensei was able to interfere and stop me in time..before I really hurt her a lot..
Maybe I will go visit her..though, she looked awfully scared as she left..and I wonder if there is now a bridge burnt between she and I..that I cannot fix this time..and I don't think Rath is very happy with me either..it's probably best if I just stay away from that home...this both upsets and relaxes me..
Riyen-sensei managed to calm me down after that, and we had..a good sleep, and an even better morning..though it didn't last long..our home was attacked b-by..by something..I'm not sure what they were, but they practically destroyed our living room..luckily, we managed to clean up with only a few hours work..we just need to buy some new pieces of furniture, I guess..but Riyen-sensei says it's not a problem..
Whatever those things were, they really hurt my head..they hurt it a lot..I thought I would go mad; I was rendered totally useless without them even touching me..it was like they were i-inside of my mind..Oh gods, I'm not making any sense, am I? It was Riyen-sensei who had to fight them, who got injured..any injury I sustained by self inflicted from stupidity..yet it hurt so bad..my head is worse these days, I think..I think it's because of what's coming..whatever it may be..
I hurt my hands and knees during the commotion, and Riyen-sensei tried to explain those creatures to me while she cleaned me up..like who sent them, and..some other things that make her past a little clearer..yes, I understand a little better now..we're going to intensify my training, just in preparation..and she made me a promise, and I know she'll stand by her words.
Just like Riyen-sensei will stay with me, I will stay with her..as long as I'm alive..or perhaps..even after..
Rath nii-san and Sera went home tonight..she and I..got into a little fight..though I will say now, I was not myself; I do not even remember all of the things I did, though I know it was horrible. I really hurt her, and as mad as I was..I'm still sorry. It was my anger that fueled this incident and left me so easy to controlled by..whom ever it is that seems to have gained power over me..luckily, Riyen-sensei was able to interfere and stop me in time..before I really hurt her a lot..
Maybe I will go visit her..though, she looked awfully scared as she left..and I wonder if there is now a bridge burnt between she and I..that I cannot fix this time..and I don't think Rath is very happy with me either..it's probably best if I just stay away from that home...this both upsets and relaxes me..
Riyen-sensei managed to calm me down after that, and we had..a good sleep, and an even better morning..though it didn't last long..our home was attacked b-by..by something..I'm not sure what they were, but they practically destroyed our living room..luckily, we managed to clean up with only a few hours work..we just need to buy some new pieces of furniture, I guess..but Riyen-sensei says it's not a problem..
Whatever those things were, they really hurt my head..they hurt it a lot..I thought I would go mad; I was rendered totally useless without them even touching me..it was like they were i-inside of my mind..Oh gods, I'm not making any sense, am I? It was Riyen-sensei who had to fight them, who got injured..any injury I sustained by self inflicted from stupidity..yet it hurt so bad..my head is worse these days, I think..I think it's because of what's coming..whatever it may be..
I hurt my hands and knees during the commotion, and Riyen-sensei tried to explain those creatures to me while she cleaned me up..like who sent them, and..some other things that make her past a little clearer..yes, I understand a little better now..we're going to intensify my training, just in preparation..and she made me a promise, and I know she'll stand by her words.
Just like Riyen-sensei will stay with me, I will stay with her..as long as I'm alive..or perhaps..even after..