In Seoul and it's raining
I saw Anna last night in transit to the airport. A few brief hours of human contact but they were good ones. I think I'm just going to take it easy in Tokyo, just relax. If I want to sightsee, I will. But I won't force myself to do hardcore sightseeing. My last day in Hong Kong it was raining and I just wanted to sleep and read 'Gone with the Wind'. There's plenty to do in Tokyo but I want to enjoy doing it.
Going to Hong Kong was wonderful. I'm not going to lie, being in Korea now, I didn't really miss it. In Hong Kong I met up with a friend of Gigi's (BSP/UCL friend) and a friend of her's who had gone to prep schol in Conn with lots of Koreans. And it was just great to bitch about the crazy things Korean people do and realize, I don't hate Asians! I don't even hate Koreans but as a quote I saw in HK said, "Home is not where you live but where they understand you." And that was not Korea and now I can say that. I don't have to pretend I wil miss it. I don't have to pretend Korea was anything other than an adventure and a vehicle to travel other countries I'm far more interested in. Korea is a conservative soceity and I am not conservative, I hate hierarchy. One thing that really fascinates me is why was China about to completely throw off Confucianism yet Korea still clings to it? I don't know but maybe I'll study it in grad school. But sitting next to a woman on the flight back from HK, who just elbowed me and put her newspaper into my face like I don't exist reminded me why people don't really come to Korea, why it's not really that welcoming. I could tel this woman just wanted to push past me to get off the plane, so I walked extra slowly, just to annoy her because I like to exist to other people. I don't like that she can ignore me because she doesn't know me and I'm younger than her. Maybe that works in Korea but I don't have to understand Koreans anymore so I just simply won't bother.
Note: This doesn't mean I don't like you if you are Korean or Korean-American, I am speaking to the society on a whole. I think a lot of the bitterness has returned mostly because I'm in transit at a youth hostel right now and once I leave the country it will go away until next week when I come back for the last time.
Going to Hong Kong was wonderful. I'm not going to lie, being in Korea now, I didn't really miss it. In Hong Kong I met up with a friend of Gigi's (BSP/UCL friend) and a friend of her's who had gone to prep schol in Conn with lots of Koreans. And it was just great to bitch about the crazy things Korean people do and realize, I don't hate Asians! I don't even hate Koreans but as a quote I saw in HK said, "Home is not where you live but where they understand you." And that was not Korea and now I can say that. I don't have to pretend I wil miss it. I don't have to pretend Korea was anything other than an adventure and a vehicle to travel other countries I'm far more interested in. Korea is a conservative soceity and I am not conservative, I hate hierarchy. One thing that really fascinates me is why was China about to completely throw off Confucianism yet Korea still clings to it? I don't know but maybe I'll study it in grad school. But sitting next to a woman on the flight back from HK, who just elbowed me and put her newspaper into my face like I don't exist reminded me why people don't really come to Korea, why it's not really that welcoming. I could tel this woman just wanted to push past me to get off the plane, so I walked extra slowly, just to annoy her because I like to exist to other people. I don't like that she can ignore me because she doesn't know me and I'm younger than her. Maybe that works in Korea but I don't have to understand Koreans anymore so I just simply won't bother.
Note: This doesn't mean I don't like you if you are Korean or Korean-American, I am speaking to the society on a whole. I think a lot of the bitterness has returned mostly because I'm in transit at a youth hostel right now and once I leave the country it will go away until next week when I come back for the last time.