happy turkey day
so...today was thanksgiving. nothing too special. I started cooking at 6 30 am...yes, me...lol. My turkey turned out really good! all 18 pounds of it. my 2nd thanksgiving now, so i guess im doin alright :) i made green bean casserole, potatoes, really good herb stuffing, and a few other lil things. I love cooking.
I wish Bri couldve been here with me and my family. My brother and sister in law were asking about him, as to why he wasnt here. I told them flat out: Im embarassed by the current condition of this house. Though I did work my ass off these past few days cleaning this place, it still disgusts me. my mother has no idea how to keep a house. I hope he understands. I miss him so much when we're not together. I wake every morning bursting to talk to him, to hear his voice. I dont sleep well unless ive talked to him during the day at some point. I hope thats not too much for him. I really do love him, and i hope he realizes how much. Tomorrow is our 2 month :) Unfortunately i dont know if we'll be able to see eachother...since i have to work 12-5 and he starts at 2 30pm till prolly 3 am...*sigh* i do wish we could see eachother more. But im patient :). I cant wait till the day i can spend much more time with him :) I dont know what he wants, but id love to see him most every day when its possible :). i guess im that type of person, always wanting to be in the company of the one they love, doing whatever they can to make them happy :). Hopefully he'll be able to sneak out of work for 30 seconds or so tomorrow a lil after 5pm so i can give him a hug and kiss. His birthday is on sunday. Im wondering if thats why hes seemed a lil tense lately. I know im never really excited around my birthday, well, minus my upcoming one cuz its my 21st...lol. But i think i may sorta understand. He hasnt told me what he wants or needs for his birthday...so i hope he likes what he gets from me. Its very hard to shop for guys lol.
JCrew is going ok, stressful...but i need the money. Gotta start saving something. Im gonna have college loans out the ass to pay back after graduation *sigh*. sometimes i wonder if its even worth it; the degrees im going for. What am i going to do with them, honestly? Sometimes i think id just make a really good house wife. I like to cook, and yes, i even enjoy cleaning. I love decorating- i cant wait till the day i get to decorate my first house. *sigh* i dont know, maybe im just nervous, scared, about the fact that i dont know what my future holds. I hate not knowing sometimes. Theres one thing right now that i know for sure though... :)
alright, guess im going to bed soon... night all
if youre reading this babes, I Love You :)
I wish Bri couldve been here with me and my family. My brother and sister in law were asking about him, as to why he wasnt here. I told them flat out: Im embarassed by the current condition of this house. Though I did work my ass off these past few days cleaning this place, it still disgusts me. my mother has no idea how to keep a house. I hope he understands. I miss him so much when we're not together. I wake every morning bursting to talk to him, to hear his voice. I dont sleep well unless ive talked to him during the day at some point. I hope thats not too much for him. I really do love him, and i hope he realizes how much. Tomorrow is our 2 month :) Unfortunately i dont know if we'll be able to see eachother...since i have to work 12-5 and he starts at 2 30pm till prolly 3 am...*sigh* i do wish we could see eachother more. But im patient :). I cant wait till the day i can spend much more time with him :) I dont know what he wants, but id love to see him most every day when its possible :). i guess im that type of person, always wanting to be in the company of the one they love, doing whatever they can to make them happy :). Hopefully he'll be able to sneak out of work for 30 seconds or so tomorrow a lil after 5pm so i can give him a hug and kiss. His birthday is on sunday. Im wondering if thats why hes seemed a lil tense lately. I know im never really excited around my birthday, well, minus my upcoming one cuz its my 21st...lol. But i think i may sorta understand. He hasnt told me what he wants or needs for his birthday...so i hope he likes what he gets from me. Its very hard to shop for guys lol.
JCrew is going ok, stressful...but i need the money. Gotta start saving something. Im gonna have college loans out the ass to pay back after graduation *sigh*. sometimes i wonder if its even worth it; the degrees im going for. What am i going to do with them, honestly? Sometimes i think id just make a really good house wife. I like to cook, and yes, i even enjoy cleaning. I love decorating- i cant wait till the day i get to decorate my first house. *sigh* i dont know, maybe im just nervous, scared, about the fact that i dont know what my future holds. I hate not knowing sometimes. Theres one thing right now that i know for sure though... :)
alright, guess im going to bed soon... night all
if youre reading this babes, I Love You :)