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so its been not too long since my last update...hehe ir eally should be more dedicated to this thing, hehe. Was home this past weekendish. Spent the night at brians sunday and monday:) his dogs are hilarious. his house is beautiful. And he gained sooo much of my trust those nights, youve no idea... we just cuddled, and kissed, and slept...he didnt expect anything....it was great. I felt so extremely comfortable...i hope he realizes that... Im really liking this.....i hope he feels the same....
i miss him sooo much, it sometimes hurts...lol *sigh*
in other news, oneonta is beautiful right now. clear skies, calm winds, and the colors are at their peak :) Fall is so breathtaking, i just wish i could be sharing it with a certain someone right now ;). I love fall, but it depresses me as well. Its soccer season. I miss it, soooo much. It was my passion. Whats even worse is that i can see the college field from my room, and the men's team is playing right now, and the women's team played just before them. Such a fucking tease. Its almost like its rubbing it in my face saying" haha you suck, you dont play anymore" and "youll never get back into soccer shape to play one last time"...ugh! I miss the rec leagues. Not playing for stats, just for fun! why did school sports have to fall to such politics? hopefully someday i can live somewhere where they have an adult rec league, kinda like they have adult softball rec leagues....i can hope...:-\ I always wanted to get a group of friends together and play for fun, but i dont have enough friends that like soccer enough to play. :( , even 3v3 or 5v5! *sigh* as i said, i can only hope. oh well, i suppose i should get back to studying. *gag me*
i miss him sooo much, it sometimes hurts...lol *sigh*
in other news, oneonta is beautiful right now. clear skies, calm winds, and the colors are at their peak :) Fall is so breathtaking, i just wish i could be sharing it with a certain someone right now ;). I love fall, but it depresses me as well. Its soccer season. I miss it, soooo much. It was my passion. Whats even worse is that i can see the college field from my room, and the men's team is playing right now, and the women's team played just before them. Such a fucking tease. Its almost like its rubbing it in my face saying" haha you suck, you dont play anymore" and "youll never get back into soccer shape to play one last time"...ugh! I miss the rec leagues. Not playing for stats, just for fun! why did school sports have to fall to such politics? hopefully someday i can live somewhere where they have an adult rec league, kinda like they have adult softball rec leagues....i can hope...:-\ I always wanted to get a group of friends together and play for fun, but i dont have enough friends that like soccer enough to play. :( , even 3v3 or 5v5! *sigh* as i said, i can only hope. oh well, i suppose i should get back to studying. *gag me*