Feb 27, 2005 15:56
things that come to me when my eyes are closed always make a bigger impression on me than things i see with my eyes open. for sure. thats just how i am. if i'm asleep, or im thinking and my eyes are closed, its blocking off all outside influences and coming from a more important place, whatever it is i'm thinking about.
so yeah, the things that've popped into my head when i've been asleep or thinking in whatever state i happen to be in are just odd to say the least. odd but true...
*i hope she decides to stop doing this soon because its making me sick because something's wrong.
*i hope he's happy with his revelation, i hope he knows what that could mean later on in life.
*i hope i'm happy with my own acceptance of me, because though i've been this way for a long time, my whole life, its hard to say it out loud. for sure.
*i hope he doesn't go too far.
*i hope seeing isnt believing.
until these things materialize (or dont), im going with the flow. i cant stop fate, i cant change it, i can only make it mine.
that doesnt stop me from getting aggravated with situations and things and people.
i think everyone should look at themselves long and hard, including myself. i think everyone's confused right now, even if they've come to a definite about something - its all the more reason step back and examine.
i keep quiet about these things. its not my place to say out loud what im thinking sometimes.
i'll say one thing for certain - silence doesnt mean you dont understand. i dont think everyone understands that.