good tomatoes are 87 times better than so-so tomatoes
speaking feels like a chore. can't listen to music (until now).
it's fairly therapeutic. i've been doing this faux meditation my whole life. i recommend it. i also ate a fancy cupcake. that helps, too.
if i'm having a nervous breakdown or something, this is the most peaceful nervous breakdown of all times.
i'm having a hard time coping with the state of the world right now. and feeling hopeless and helpless. it gets worse and worse...perhaps the beginning of the next major "fall" in history?
i also spend an overwhelming amount of time victimizing myself and dwelling on stupid stuff.
i guess it's rather common to destroy positives because the negatives are addicting.
i don't really have a point. i might be losing it. i haven't more than one glass of cabernet and one corona since tuesday. i have a sinus infection.
i regret this web-log. i also resent it because it's addicting and destructive and self-involved.
if i don't make some kind of worldly contribution, I will drown in self-pity and end up miserable.
the worst nonsense: i have NOTHING together in my life right now, but i suddenly want a baby?! babies like me though. i like to make them "fly". i hate angelina jolie. she should give me her ethiopian baby. and some money to take care of her.