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[red_cross_kid]

so theres this lady i went to nursing school with named heather, who in my incredibally full of myself opinion is probably the other smartest u of m student. when i found out she had also got the hsc adult emerg practicum, i started paying more attention to her. i never had classes with her until 4th year. i was always the first done my exams by a

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[teanut]

what is a .7? good luck with getting the fibro figured out kell. is there shit you can do that doesn't involve the opiates?

as for skids in the straight world...dude, i have been trying to figure it out for 7 months. you would think all the gays would be at makeup school but not so much. people say things like 'it would be so funny if we all went to celebrities (the gay bar)' and then other people reply 'oh i bet there would be so many wonnnnderful people there.' eat my shit. anyway. yeah its rough dude and personally i prefer the bubble. i think i am feeling much more comfortable after these 7 months than i was at first for sure so i guess maybe its just a matter of time....let them all love you then unleash the skid. just kidding. well kinda. i don't think that you should have to feel like you need to hold back tho. i am thinking that if you have to tone shit down than 'good solid relationships' wont neccesarily come from that. it just sounds more stressful to me. but i know where you are coming from. anyway, screaming about it to other skids and gaylords and having mild temper tantrums in the midst of the straightworld seems to work out. hah. good luck kell.

xo.

[red_cross_kid]

a .7 is part time. like 1.0 is what i work now, and thats fulltime. so itd be um...28-ish hours a week. which would still mean id have to work the occasional 60 hour week, but itd be rarer. and in the complex world of tax, id end up not making that much less. so thats my big hopeful plan.

if the gays arent in nursing school, or makeup school, really, where the hell are they? im so stymied by this. i totally thought nursing school would be fag-city but there werent any! im going for your advice of letting them all loveme before i release the skid, but also hanging out a lot by myself on breaks. i guess the 'good, solid relatio' thing isnt so much like uh 'personal' thing, its just nurse are so catty, and with shift roations of working 4 12 hour shifts in four days, you spend so much time together you have to have each others backs. and when its slow, they have so much time to ask so many questions and you cant escape. so im kind of running with 'mind my buisness, mae jokes when funny, get really smart and work intensly hard'. that way if the skid factor ever hardcoer pops up they can say 'well she doesnt push it on other people, and damn is she a hard worker' and they wont want to ostracize me as much.

this is all done with a certain amount of naieveness, since i apparently am the first nurse to ever work in their department with a skull and cross bones tattooed on my forearm, which is not covered up by my uniform, i still wear black and camo every day, and i know a suspiciously large amount about drugs. all of these things have been noted by coworkers.

xo

ps come visit pleaseeeee!!!!!!!!!

[teanut]

okay, well at least they are kind of figuring it out. gradual as it may be. honestly, how can they not love you? i do say this from a skiddy queer perspective but really.

and yeah, i guess they all went to art school this year. what the fuck? shouldn't we have gotten some sort of memo or something?

i am doing the same thing at school. like if i help everyone and study like crazy then it makes a difference, but it seems to. even when people are put off by me they don't seem to want to discuss it so that works for me for now. i only have till the end of july tho. good luck with this, and with getting the .7.

i so badly want to come and visit the east tho burning man and paying my rent is top priority. if you hear of any cars driving cross-country this summer tho please keep me posted.

xox, t.