And Attempt
I'm not entirely sure as to where to go with this; I've this undeniable impression that the things I'm doing, the things I'm aiming for, and the things I'm capable of aren't entirely universally applicable. I've a feeling that the course I've taken is not some option available to all, which is one way of saying, "I am one lucky bastard and I have a lot to be grateful for." Mostly though, mostly it's because the aforementioned 'things' are all so well suited to me.
I don't know how well any of it could actually be said, but I've not really let that keep me from capturing moments thus-far.
Consider 'I' as a universal reference, something to be considered as, theoretically, anyone.
Attempt 1:
I am me. I will always be me, regardless of whatever hand-outs of denial or self-suppression may ever be lain down, that is who I am. For all the change that is yet to come, for all the ways I can influence myself, or let myself be influenced, I am and will be myself. The greatest advantages I will ever have, the best things I can ever offer, will all be through me. If I've any intent of finding myself satisfied, it will be on my end that the greatest demand lies. I have learned to grow from nothing more than from knowing me, and what I as me offers. If I wish to learn or acquire something else, to 'be' different later than I am now, it'll do no good without first knowing what I am now. No matter what, I will be me. Forgetting, suppressing or denying that will do me no good. The same stands for others beyond me; and I would do well to recognize others in the same fashion.
Attempt 2:
I am in these moments. I will always be in these moments, regardless of whatever memories or prospective futures I look into, the moment is where I stand. For all the moments that I am yet to enter, for all the experiences I can have, or help others have, I am and always will be present in what is now. The greatest experiences I will ever have, the best outcomes I can ever bring, will all have spawned in some way from (or, will have in some way spawned) what is done now. If I've any intent of doing something worth-while, it will be through things done beforehand that it will have become possible. I have learned to do things only because I have spent moments practicing them, and those moments are what enabled these to be as they are.
It's easy to say things, easy to read them and understand the concepts... but it's never compared to having realized it, having really experienced what it is to have it. The only way I know of to really find out how to do that is entirely dependent on practicing doing it. It's just like anything else an individual learns, really. I don't doubt that I'll still be toying with me; I definitely don't doubt that I'll be toying with writing. The way things are, now... they are. I'm not entirely sure how else to put it.
I don't know how well any of it could actually be said, but I've not really let that keep me from capturing moments thus-far.
Consider 'I' as a universal reference, something to be considered as, theoretically, anyone.
Attempt 1:
I am me. I will always be me, regardless of whatever hand-outs of denial or self-suppression may ever be lain down, that is who I am. For all the change that is yet to come, for all the ways I can influence myself, or let myself be influenced, I am and will be myself. The greatest advantages I will ever have, the best things I can ever offer, will all be through me. If I've any intent of finding myself satisfied, it will be on my end that the greatest demand lies. I have learned to grow from nothing more than from knowing me, and what I as me offers. If I wish to learn or acquire something else, to 'be' different later than I am now, it'll do no good without first knowing what I am now. No matter what, I will be me. Forgetting, suppressing or denying that will do me no good. The same stands for others beyond me; and I would do well to recognize others in the same fashion.
Attempt 2:
I am in these moments. I will always be in these moments, regardless of whatever memories or prospective futures I look into, the moment is where I stand. For all the moments that I am yet to enter, for all the experiences I can have, or help others have, I am and always will be present in what is now. The greatest experiences I will ever have, the best outcomes I can ever bring, will all have spawned in some way from (or, will have in some way spawned) what is done now. If I've any intent of doing something worth-while, it will be through things done beforehand that it will have become possible. I have learned to do things only because I have spent moments practicing them, and those moments are what enabled these to be as they are.
It's easy to say things, easy to read them and understand the concepts... but it's never compared to having realized it, having really experienced what it is to have it. The only way I know of to really find out how to do that is entirely dependent on practicing doing it. It's just like anything else an individual learns, really. I don't doubt that I'll still be toying with me; I definitely don't doubt that I'll be toying with writing. The way things are, now... they are. I'm not entirely sure how else to put it.