Family?
OMG I have got to have one of the worst families in the world. I have the type of family that don't give a rat's ass if they hurt your feelings and that is one of the worst things ever. And half of my family know they are doing it too. Just when you think they are going to change oopps oh no that can't happen. If it did they would show the slightest hint of feeling and that is a bad thing to have. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Sorry just had to get that out.
ANyways if I don't stop talking about them then I am going to get really angry and no one likes me when I'm angry. (And for comic book fans out there, I don't turn green.)
I started out having a really good day but then I was up at Arby's and like all these couples came in and it made me wish I was in California right then and there. And I still do. I am having major Chris withdrawls. I want to be there with him so bad so I can have his arms around me and holding my hand, and having someone I love with me. Thats what makes this hard is not getting to just hang out with him. I just want to be with him so bad and this sux. I don't even know if it bugs him like this. Like it bugs me. I know its hard for him too. I just wish he would tell me so I can know that I am not alone with all those feelings. He probably just doesn't want to upset me by talking about it. I love him so much. Even though I think he long distance worries him. That he doesn't know where I go or with who. Everyone here can tell him that I'm not cheating lol b/c its NOT true. How could I cheat on someone who is like every bit my type. I don't want to mes this up. I don't want to lose him. I can't love him too much now. I'm not worry about him being far away from me. I know he couldn't cheat on me. He wouldn't want to be cheated on so he wouldn't do it to his girlfriend, you know. I think me and him are doing great. I don't see any problems. Knock on wood. I'm never going to intenionally hurt him.
Oh and by the way I HAVEN'T SMOKED IN FOUR DAYS!!! I'm quiting and for good this time!! No more smoking for me anymore. I'm tired of waisting my time my money and plus my mom and boyfriend hate it. Well actually my boyfriend is quiting with me. We can do it. Hes a very strong person and he an say no, I know he can. And he gives me strength to stop too.
Well when I wasn't missing Chris, I actually had some fun. Me and Savannah had plans to go see a movie. Well we were going o go see Resident Evil 2 but when she came over my little brother wasn't in a good mood b/c of our dad so to try and make him feel better she told my mom that she was going to pay his way for the movie. But it was rated R so he couldn't go see it so we decided on Without a Paddle which was so damn funny. It was better than I thought it was going to be. So we had fun there and my brother felt better. I wanted to get out of the house just as much as he did maybe even more. I went to Savannah's and Kris showed up and I haven't hung out with him in so long. I have forgotten how funny he was. I asked if he wanted to hang out with us and he was like "sure" so we came to my house and everyone was fighting over here so we decided o go to Arby's b/c Savannah wanted to see Matt I took her up to Arby's and we were there like for 4 hrs it seemed like. And that was fun b/c Kris was so funny. He thinks hes shy but omg no he is not. Hes the opposite. That was fun. I laughed so hard.
Well as busy as this Journal entry seems. When I typed it it didn't take forever. Well that was the day that I had. so ....
Later Days!
Sorry just had to get that out.
ANyways if I don't stop talking about them then I am going to get really angry and no one likes me when I'm angry. (And for comic book fans out there, I don't turn green.)
I started out having a really good day but then I was up at Arby's and like all these couples came in and it made me wish I was in California right then and there. And I still do. I am having major Chris withdrawls. I want to be there with him so bad so I can have his arms around me and holding my hand, and having someone I love with me. Thats what makes this hard is not getting to just hang out with him. I just want to be with him so bad and this sux. I don't even know if it bugs him like this. Like it bugs me. I know its hard for him too. I just wish he would tell me so I can know that I am not alone with all those feelings. He probably just doesn't want to upset me by talking about it. I love him so much. Even though I think he long distance worries him. That he doesn't know where I go or with who. Everyone here can tell him that I'm not cheating lol b/c its NOT true. How could I cheat on someone who is like every bit my type. I don't want to mes this up. I don't want to lose him. I can't love him too much now. I'm not worry about him being far away from me. I know he couldn't cheat on me. He wouldn't want to be cheated on so he wouldn't do it to his girlfriend, you know. I think me and him are doing great. I don't see any problems. Knock on wood. I'm never going to intenionally hurt him.
Oh and by the way I HAVEN'T SMOKED IN FOUR DAYS!!! I'm quiting and for good this time!! No more smoking for me anymore. I'm tired of waisting my time my money and plus my mom and boyfriend hate it. Well actually my boyfriend is quiting with me. We can do it. Hes a very strong person and he an say no, I know he can. And he gives me strength to stop too.
Well when I wasn't missing Chris, I actually had some fun. Me and Savannah had plans to go see a movie. Well we were going o go see Resident Evil 2 but when she came over my little brother wasn't in a good mood b/c of our dad so to try and make him feel better she told my mom that she was going to pay his way for the movie. But it was rated R so he couldn't go see it so we decided on Without a Paddle which was so damn funny. It was better than I thought it was going to be. So we had fun there and my brother felt better. I wanted to get out of the house just as much as he did maybe even more. I went to Savannah's and Kris showed up and I haven't hung out with him in so long. I have forgotten how funny he was. I asked if he wanted to hang out with us and he was like "sure" so we came to my house and everyone was fighting over here so we decided o go to Arby's b/c Savannah wanted to see Matt I took her up to Arby's and we were there like for 4 hrs it seemed like. And that was fun b/c Kris was so funny. He thinks hes shy but omg no he is not. Hes the opposite. That was fun. I laughed so hard.
Well as busy as this Journal entry seems. When I typed it it didn't take forever. Well that was the day that I had. so ....
Later Days!