Hi my name is Adam and i'm here
so things are the same, aparently jeff is staying here now so i'm back in the market for a 2bdrm.nothing new. worked nights all this week, sadly no one came by and honked, you buncha dicks.the work was really easy, just the saying up all night and trying to sleep during the day kicked my ass.
as we were drilling infront of the dixie tonight i realized somthing. i've had no girl friend for a year and a half now, that in itself is depressing but there is more. i just thought, well its a dam good possablity that i wont get one before i leave and maybe not for a long time after that.aparently women dont go for the quiet, loyal and willing to listen guy at my age. when i'm 43...score.
just right now i dunno, dont get me wrong, having someone would be awesome. but its just doesnt seem to be my time i guess.i cant seem to help myself, my friends cant seem to help, although i doubt they've tried but its not their problem. and to be honest i've gotten so used to being alone i doesnt bother me as much as it used to.the only time it does is when i see a couple or some cute girl, its those times i think to myself "i wonder if she knows she's that cute, does she have a bf? does her bf tell her she is?if not he should."
its at that point i realize...women say they want someone who thinks like that but what they want is someone who fucking ignores them, cheats on them then says he's sorry.and that makes me feel like a dumb pussy.maybe i'm just not right for anyone.i just need to get ready for the army, i joined 24hr fitness,working out helps some but i still feel the thud when i see that pretty girl alone walking or driving, and i know i cant be with her or anyone for some reason.
i think i'm defective
as we were drilling infront of the dixie tonight i realized somthing. i've had no girl friend for a year and a half now, that in itself is depressing but there is more. i just thought, well its a dam good possablity that i wont get one before i leave and maybe not for a long time after that.aparently women dont go for the quiet, loyal and willing to listen guy at my age. when i'm 43...score.
just right now i dunno, dont get me wrong, having someone would be awesome. but its just doesnt seem to be my time i guess.i cant seem to help myself, my friends cant seem to help, although i doubt they've tried but its not their problem. and to be honest i've gotten so used to being alone i doesnt bother me as much as it used to.the only time it does is when i see a couple or some cute girl, its those times i think to myself "i wonder if she knows she's that cute, does she have a bf? does her bf tell her she is?if not he should."
its at that point i realize...women say they want someone who thinks like that but what they want is someone who fucking ignores them, cheats on them then says he's sorry.and that makes me feel like a dumb pussy.maybe i'm just not right for anyone.i just need to get ready for the army, i joined 24hr fitness,working out helps some but i still feel the thud when i see that pretty girl alone walking or driving, and i know i cant be with her or anyone for some reason.
i think i'm defective