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so if u cant figure out by now she wants nothing to do with me.becuase i lost my temper a lil bit for no reason on monday, i yelled at her on aim a couple sentances. she said that i scared her and i have a horrid temper and i need to get help.i tried explaining to her that i was jus venting and she knows i would NEVER hurt her. well fuck u to adam aparently.out of all the honest and caring things i have said to her thats the only one she takes heart in.i am the 1st person to admit i have quite the temper, i vent and i bitch, but as far as hurting anyone who doesnt deserve it? IT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN. then to top it off she got the flowers i had ordered for her last week, they were supose to be delivered friday, today and i'm sure she thought that was some ploy to get her back.she then said i should get help, which after a second thought cannot happen because any mental health notes on your military check means a no go for ANY service.yes i get overly attached to people and yes i cried like a bitch after i finaly realized she would have nothing to do to me.and i'm sure i'll be hurting for awhile yet, but you know what? thats ok. i have dam good friends.friends who know me, know i'm a goofy fuck, know i'm an emo whore, know i'm a mad little man, know i lose my temper fast, and hopfully know that i would have anyone of their backs.
to go along with my unaturaly fast emotional attachment, goes undying loyalty.if u earned my friendship i will walk to fire with/for you.i hope all my friends that read this,especialy the main crew(even the wiener in v town), know this.i may not show it but you all are pretty bad ass.
both dave and my sister mentioned that since i've been back i tend to lose my temper more, honestly i havnt noticed, i still feel the same but if both of them see it then it proally is true.its jus my way of being more agressive i guess....from age 0-19 i was a passive fuck, i would get mad and do nothing, passive people lose in real life is how i look at it. i see ppl whose furniture i deliver every day, these "A-type" with their nice ass wives and fancy house and cars.they have what i want, and hopfully will one day.
and to judith a king i will be coming to your party on sat, and i will drink to a level of intoxocation previously unseen within the likes of adam.i will wish u a happy 21st and forget how much i hated u.i will drink and drink, pee...and drink.
to chelsea....yes i have a bad temper, i would have never hurt you and u know that, you were done with me the day you left and needed a way out more then likly, and if u do think i need "help" i say this....HEY FUCK YOU, being mad and overly emotional makes adam adam.i will yell your head off one day and the next be on my knee lifting you out of a hole.because thats who i am, if you dont want to be with me? to bad, how dare you say i scare you and need help.again,being mad and overly emotional makes adam adam.i thought u were different but, your impulsive and shallow like the rest who wont/will never look through to my eyes and heart. FUCK YOU
"never mess with anyones heart and never deal with anyone who messes with your own"
Baz
to go along with my unaturaly fast emotional attachment, goes undying loyalty.if u earned my friendship i will walk to fire with/for you.i hope all my friends that read this,especialy the main crew(even the wiener in v town), know this.i may not show it but you all are pretty bad ass.
both dave and my sister mentioned that since i've been back i tend to lose my temper more, honestly i havnt noticed, i still feel the same but if both of them see it then it proally is true.its jus my way of being more agressive i guess....from age 0-19 i was a passive fuck, i would get mad and do nothing, passive people lose in real life is how i look at it. i see ppl whose furniture i deliver every day, these "A-type" with their nice ass wives and fancy house and cars.they have what i want, and hopfully will one day.
and to judith a king i will be coming to your party on sat, and i will drink to a level of intoxocation previously unseen within the likes of adam.i will wish u a happy 21st and forget how much i hated u.i will drink and drink, pee...and drink.
to chelsea....yes i have a bad temper, i would have never hurt you and u know that, you were done with me the day you left and needed a way out more then likly, and if u do think i need "help" i say this....HEY FUCK YOU, being mad and overly emotional makes adam adam.i will yell your head off one day and the next be on my knee lifting you out of a hole.because thats who i am, if you dont want to be with me? to bad, how dare you say i scare you and need help.again,being mad and overly emotional makes adam adam.i thought u were different but, your impulsive and shallow like the rest who wont/will never look through to my eyes and heart. FUCK YOU
"never mess with anyones heart and never deal with anyone who messes with your own"
Baz