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I didn't mean to freak out anybody yesterday. I was just freaking out because of a couple of things.
*I don't leave the house much. I really don't know anybody here it sucksass!
*Culture shock! Because hello welcome to a place where people are so fucking dumb it makes you want to pull every strand of your hair.
*I have no clue what I'm doing. I'm supposed to sell but I have no proper training for it. That scares me a lot. I have no idea how to go about doing it. And unfortunately, I have to learn and fast.
I got all pretty today, perhaps that is helping me. I looked at myself in the mirror and think that I can do anything. It's hard enough that in this state women are still living like in the 50's but having to proof that you are a professional business woman seems harder than I thought.
Unfortunately, I made the decision to move here. And I have to live with it. I accepted that yesterday. I talked to Phoenyx a little bit about yesterday, he said that he understands where I'm coming from. I feel like I have a lot of weight on my shoulders and I have to learn to share that with him.
Failure is something I deal with all the time. I learned that it's okay to fail and then pick yourself up and keep on fighting. My boss said to me that the reason they knew I could do this was because I have that quality about me. IT's a compliment which I accepted with open arms. It made me feel good about myself. I thought about quitting yesterday, but that's the easy way out. I like it when things are complicated, I appreciate them more that way.
Then I made a mental note, when I had money I'm going shopping :)
*I don't leave the house much. I really don't know anybody here it sucksass!
*Culture shock! Because hello welcome to a place where people are so fucking dumb it makes you want to pull every strand of your hair.
*I have no clue what I'm doing. I'm supposed to sell but I have no proper training for it. That scares me a lot. I have no idea how to go about doing it. And unfortunately, I have to learn and fast.
I got all pretty today, perhaps that is helping me. I looked at myself in the mirror and think that I can do anything. It's hard enough that in this state women are still living like in the 50's but having to proof that you are a professional business woman seems harder than I thought.
Unfortunately, I made the decision to move here. And I have to live with it. I accepted that yesterday. I talked to Phoenyx a little bit about yesterday, he said that he understands where I'm coming from. I feel like I have a lot of weight on my shoulders and I have to learn to share that with him.
Failure is something I deal with all the time. I learned that it's okay to fail and then pick yourself up and keep on fighting. My boss said to me that the reason they knew I could do this was because I have that quality about me. IT's a compliment which I accepted with open arms. It made me feel good about myself. I thought about quitting yesterday, but that's the easy way out. I like it when things are complicated, I appreciate them more that way.
Then I made a mental note, when I had money I'm going shopping :)