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ok, so i really like my job. i like the people and i like what i do. i just hate being on call. you know when you are on the schedule but not really on cause you'll only go in if they need you. well thats what my schedule has been like pretty much so far. i hate being on call cause every time i call in, they dont need me. very annoying. they dont even give real hours also. how random is a shift from 2pm-6pm. well thats one of mine. a real work day is 8.5 hours but since they have so many employees, noone really works more than 4 or 5 hours. it doesnt make sense. the only day i am working more than 4 hours is monday and its only 7. this job needs to pay for my rent. its not just something for me to do so im not home all day long. ugh. well enough of that, im going to lunch with lys today. havent seen her in so long and im glad we are doing this. shes gunna pick me up and we are going to figure out where to go. itll probably be somewhere italian so i think im gunna go to the gym after so i can burn off the pasta i ate. i go to the gym at least twice a week so far. not that great. i need to start going more. my arms are getting muscular but i want more. dont even know if i lost anything. the scale in our apt is wierd. it tells you different things all the time. im 3 pounds heavier than i was like yesterday. i need to watch what i eat instead of sticking my hand in a giant pretzel jar from the price club. no more snacking (well at least try to). i want the motivation i had over the summer where i lost over 10 pounds. i was watching made a few weeks ago and i actually went on the website to see what the age limit is. its 21! sweet. "I want to be made into a size 4". does that count as being made?? i dont want to be on the cheerleading team or the lead in the school play, i want to be a size 4. ok maybe a 6. or "i want to be made into a girl that can wear a bikini". is that better? stomach needs to go away.
back on the job part, ive decided to take a small break from interviewing for full time jobs. pottery barn kids is only a part time for now. in 1 day, i got 2 rejections from companies. im sick of hearing "no" from them. its depressing. ive gotten so many rejections. maybe i should move back home and work for williams sonoma. there i could probably become full time and possibly a lead sales. we'll have to see when the lease is up or even when alexx graduates.i cant just leav her with this apt alone. not going to do that to her. so i have 1.5 yrs to figure something out and figure out where i want my life to go.
back on the job part, ive decided to take a small break from interviewing for full time jobs. pottery barn kids is only a part time for now. in 1 day, i got 2 rejections from companies. im sick of hearing "no" from them. its depressing. ive gotten so many rejections. maybe i should move back home and work for williams sonoma. there i could probably become full time and possibly a lead sales. we'll have to see when the lease is up or even when alexx graduates.i cant just leav her with this apt alone. not going to do that to her. so i have 1.5 yrs to figure something out and figure out where i want my life to go.