Long Time No Update
I have been so busy it's ridiculous. I don't even have time for my well deserved, well earned, long time coming break down. School is mad crazy like usual....this philosophy term paper is turning out to be a nightmare....much harder than I thought it origionally would be. I want it to be a good, well thought out paper, but my brain is struggling to "hug" what I need to in order to get it done. I haven't really come up with a solution to that, so I guess I can move onto my pressing final stats homework. Dr. Y says that it will take close to 20 pages worth of work. 20 pages! OMFG! How many times can I say that in a minute? Lots...I tested it. The thought illicits blinding terror. OMFG...
Then there is work. Someone ratted me out to the store manager that I was quitting this summer. I get into work today and before I clock in she's all buddy buddy like what's up? Wow, the shave reset looks awesome huh? Good job. Then I clock in and she attacks. Can I talk to you for a minute? You haven't been acting like yourself lately. Oh really, and you know me so well to know this? It's just, things are starting to slide a lot. Is there anything you want to talk about? So I told her that it was hard being at work so much and having to do twice the work and go to school 14 hours a week. She's like, yeah I bet. Well do you still want to be head of the dept? I heard through the grapevine (I.E a snitch) that you were leaving us this summer. GREeeAAttt......so thats what went down at work tonight. It's just crazy...I had no intention of telling her anything untill I was getting another job y'know? Now she knows and it's going to be this awkward like "I know you're leaving" thing....ugghh.. uggh... I dunno, my head is spinning in like 20 directions and I don't even know where to start to unwind things.
Next week is the last full week of class before finals. If I can just survive this, I know things will be okay. Make it to the summer...and I can take some breathing room and figure things out. I just need to make it through this. Right now everything is just kinda....claustraphobic. There's this girl at work...and she just moved out on her own...and she's playing this head game with her parents. She moved out just to tip their cow. She's like...well I'll just move back home in a few weeks, this is just to get them to realize a few things. God what I would kill to be able to just go home to a house where my parents would be able to pay for everything and tell me that everything will be okay. Wishful thinking, because that probably isn't even what I really want. I'm just lonely I guess...I don't have anytime for people. Not that I have many people, but you get the idea.
Ah...what do I know anyways. This has just been the ramblings of my sleep deprived brain. I might actually get 6 hours of sleep tonight...so I'm looking forward to that for sure. So that's it I guess...
Then there is work. Someone ratted me out to the store manager that I was quitting this summer. I get into work today and before I clock in she's all buddy buddy like what's up? Wow, the shave reset looks awesome huh? Good job. Then I clock in and she attacks. Can I talk to you for a minute? You haven't been acting like yourself lately. Oh really, and you know me so well to know this? It's just, things are starting to slide a lot. Is there anything you want to talk about? So I told her that it was hard being at work so much and having to do twice the work and go to school 14 hours a week. She's like, yeah I bet. Well do you still want to be head of the dept? I heard through the grapevine (I.E a snitch) that you were leaving us this summer. GREeeAAttt......so thats what went down at work tonight. It's just crazy...I had no intention of telling her anything untill I was getting another job y'know? Now she knows and it's going to be this awkward like "I know you're leaving" thing....ugghh.. uggh... I dunno, my head is spinning in like 20 directions and I don't even know where to start to unwind things.
Next week is the last full week of class before finals. If I can just survive this, I know things will be okay. Make it to the summer...and I can take some breathing room and figure things out. I just need to make it through this. Right now everything is just kinda....claustraphobic. There's this girl at work...and she just moved out on her own...and she's playing this head game with her parents. She moved out just to tip their cow. She's like...well I'll just move back home in a few weeks, this is just to get them to realize a few things. God what I would kill to be able to just go home to a house where my parents would be able to pay for everything and tell me that everything will be okay. Wishful thinking, because that probably isn't even what I really want. I'm just lonely I guess...I don't have anytime for people. Not that I have many people, but you get the idea.
Ah...what do I know anyways. This has just been the ramblings of my sleep deprived brain. I might actually get 6 hours of sleep tonight...so I'm looking forward to that for sure. So that's it I guess...