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well today was ok i guess started off ok but then just escalated... miranda woke me up by callin at 1 :) she makes me soo happy, and thats weird considering if you wake me up... expect to bleed. ok wait a sec my mom just busted in before i could type the reason why here ill explain... jessica a couple days ago...the oving sister that she is asked me not to eat a sandwich she got from subway. her being one of the only people i care about in this house apart from justin and kayla, i did what she requested. now last night mom bought me a subway sandwich cuz she felt guilty when she didnt order anything for me when everyone else got something from de'angelos. so i wasnt hungry, seth brought me over some goodies before hand... i love that kid. so i put it in the fridge. "nobody touch it" i exclaimed ill be real hungry in the morning, and i know jessica fucking heard me she was jammin with me and seth. i wake up sandwich gone. i calmy asked who ate it, i wasnt that pissed if it was nick or crystal because they never heard me say it. but guess who it was. jessica, wow was i enraged... but i handled it, i calmly went over supressiing my anger and tapped her on the head ::slapped gently:: and now when i mean gently i seriously mean gently "OWWWWW" shout from her mouth. and she hummed the remote at me. what the fuck is wrong her i was thinking. and instead of throwing it her i just hummed it at a wall. it broke. ITS A FUCKING REMOTE SO WHAT!!! the house automatically engulfs in an uproar. nick being the squeelin bitch that he is, runs to his daddy and tells him what horrific thing i have just done. "WHAT HE BROKE THE REMOTE" is all i hear from across the hall... i guess he was fixing the toilet. then jim stomps to the end of the house. i had already figured out what was gunna happen next. BAM my mom busts in my room like the national guard guns a blazin. swearing and yelling like i had just killed one of the family, i did..... the remote. god forbid now we have to get up and change the channel. i said id pay for it, and that i did it out of a fit of rage. "YOU CANT BUY ANOTHER ONE OF THESE" ok hold up stop everything, last time i check you can get a universal remote. costing no more than 15 bucks. ok back on track now. "yea you can ma you can get a universal remote" i so gleefully replied. "FUCK YOU JEFF YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ANYBODY IN THIS HOUSE" she was still yelling at the top of her lungs. and my attention span for her bullshit had broken right after i completed my sentence. well after yelling about how i dont love her anymore she took my cell and ranted, "what else can i take that i dont love you enough to pay for monthly." wow i didnt know paying for things meant you loved me. now i knew i shoulda hopped in that white van with the guy offering me candy and a lifetime full of expensive things. he must of loved me if he was gunna buy me all that.

now im sitting here typing away realizing how bad i want death to come swiftly and contimplating how many people would realy care if i was gone. <<<< thats the part of my speach that is gunna trigger people to reply to this post saying i will miss you blah blah blah. and yes i put it there on purpose. because the only people who would read this far down are the only ones who care about me. besides justin he doesnt like livejournal...

i'll end this by saying lifes a drag and something so little like a remote breaking can trigger a landslide that ultimatly leads me to insanity... goodbye humanity, i bid you adiue till then next time in the chronicles of mr. greenbud