And of course, she's the one in the wrong for having to fulfill a promise to her employer. Guhhhh.
THIS. Years ago a friend and I collaborated on a MR fanfic that starts at the point of the scene: "I don't want you to sleep with him" and goes AU from that. Unfortunately it's not only WIP but it's - longish and rather bad, and problematic in it's own right. (re: the evil homosexual aka the Duke.) I'm embarrassed now that I put so much time into the thing. But srsly - I don't want you to sleep with him? What about "Do you want to sleep with him?" What about her needs? Seriously, "I'll write a song!" has got to be the dumbest solution ever.
But jealousy is not something I ever really understood anyway; envy? Yes. Seeing someone else stronger, more confident, better off than myself and feeling ashamed I'm not more like them; but I don't want to take what they have away from them, I just wish I knew how to achieve it myself, or feel I deserve to. Jealousy to me is "I feel bad because I lack (whatever) or have a hang-up about (whatever) and therefore I have to control your behavior to ease my anxiety, I don't have this (whatever) therefore you shouldn't either."
And I've been on the receiving end of my sweetie's jealousy - which goes back to the breakup of her first major relationship. And it sucks being under the shadow of someone else's ghost (her ex died years ago so - major lack of closure). There's definitely been a sexual element to it.
... it's kind of similar to the Buffy/Riley situation in a way, isn't it.
And Angel, Xander, Spike - they all express jealousy at various times; its a form of policing Buffy's sexuality, her body, her very self and marking her as their territory in some way. Possessing her. Which again is why I like Buffy/Spike in S7, because it's the opposite of that. While Angel comes back in Chosen and is still policing her sexuality. As I said in my Buffy/Tara meta, that's why neither he nor Riley are worthy to be at her side in the end.
THIS. Years ago a friend and I collaborated on a MR fanfic that starts at the point of the scene: "I don't want you to sleep with him" and goes AU from that. Unfortunately it's not only WIP but it's - longish and rather bad, and problematic in it's own right. (re: the evil homosexual aka the Duke.) I'm embarrassed now that I put so much time into the thing. But srsly - I don't want you to sleep with him? What about "Do you want to sleep with him?" What about her needs? Seriously, "I'll write a song!" has got to be the dumbest solution ever.
But jealousy is not something I ever really understood anyway; envy? Yes. Seeing someone else stronger, more confident, better off than myself and feeling ashamed I'm not more like them; but I don't want to take what they have away from them, I just wish I knew how to achieve it myself, or feel I deserve to. Jealousy to me is "I feel bad because I lack (whatever) or have a hang-up about (whatever) and therefore I have to control your behavior to ease my anxiety, I don't have this (whatever) therefore you shouldn't either."
And I've been on the receiving end of my sweetie's jealousy - which goes back to the breakup of her first major relationship. And it sucks being under the shadow of someone else's ghost (her ex died years ago so - major lack of closure). There's definitely been a sexual element to it.
... it's kind of similar to the Buffy/Riley situation in a way, isn't it.
And Angel, Xander, Spike - they all express jealousy at various times; its a form of policing Buffy's sexuality, her body, her very self and marking her as their territory in some way. Possessing her. Which again is why I like Buffy/Spike in S7, because it's the opposite of that. While Angel comes back in Chosen and is still policing her sexuality. As I said in my Buffy/Tara meta, that's why neither he nor Riley are worthy to be at her side in the end.
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