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Oct 13, 2004 02:31

"plan c (quiz show)"

Basically, as my mood states. Drawn and quartered from the recent events that seem almost criminal to omit at this conjecture, I'm faced first and foremost with the decision to either simply state my recent goings-on in a bland, deadpan narrative (which is almost impossible for me to do, as you all probably well know) or tell ( Read more... )

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Re: ! kenopolis October 13 2004, 22:48:37 UTC
I do think you are walking a tightrope, but I don't think you will fall. Besides, if you do fall, there are plenty of people waiting to catch you.

I think this is good for you. After being cooped up in the middle of nowhere with your mom for so long, it's about time you got out and saw the world.

Jay, I thought you were heading down the wrong road when you were engaged and living a life of domestic tranquility. I knew that better and more exciting things were in store for you.

Hey, take it from a married man, about to be a father, enjoy life to it's fullest while you can. I miss those crazy days of drinking all night, and doing it all over the next day. It was fun!

But still, I don't miss it that much, and I am more happy where I am now, than I ever have been. But you my friend, You need to enjoy the surprises that life has to offer. Revel in the moment, Drink the wine, and eat the fatted calf. Savor every moment of it. But, all the while, be sure to keep your wits about you. One day you may still eventually settle down... Some day. Like I said many times over...

Never settle for less than what you really want.

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Re: ! recycling October 13 2004, 23:14:01 UTC
For the record, being cooped up with my mom was awesome. I was seriously having the time of my life when Curt wasn't in the picture. I was writing a lot, enjoying the countryside, and I always had someone at arm's length to talk to as a friend.

And that's just it bro, I really am a man resigned to simple pleasures. The older I get, the simpler they become. As more and more things get crossed off on the ol' "to-do" list, the more I find myself thinking, "Okay, now all I really want to do is just finish an actual book and then I can die." I'll never find myself in that chasm, for the reasons you listed, but also because I know the importance of a well-timed exit.

Now I've encountered a lot of married men and fathers, and they almost overwhelmingly tell me the same thing, "If I could do it all over again..I wouldn't." I don't want to be one of those guys, I've decided. That's not to say I believe you, or even Jason, will be one of those guys. The thing of it is, the both of you have big hearts, and when the both of you attest to your happiness and excitement, I totally believe it.

One never knows, I guess. I probably shouldn't intend to erase entire swathes of my potential futures, as nothing's quite out of the realm of possibility. I just wonder that, at nearly 29, if I don't have those tendencies to settle down now..will I ever?

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Re: ! jasonanonymous October 14 2004, 06:34:48 UTC
Oh, you'll get tired of it eventually and want to settle down. Although I haven't the fond memories of tomcatting around like you gentlemen, or nearly as much to be tired of, I still got to feeling that there was some kind of void I needed to fill. Ms. Miller hit the nail on the head, and I realized that she was the missing factor. Granted, I had wanted to settle down for quite a while before then, but my biological clock wasn't making matters any better.

I think it helped me a bit too when I finally figured out just what I wanted to do with my life as well.

~Jason

Try not to burn too many bridges... life has a hard time coming full-circle without 'em!

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Re: ! recycling October 14 2004, 08:09:40 UTC
Dude, you married the first girl you had sex with. Of course there was a "void" that you needed "to fill." And fill that void you certainly did, you beautiful bastard. But no, I believe what you're telling me, I really do. There really are normal people like yourself who don't need to get it on with a bunch of hot chicks, travel around this great country of ours and be loved from one side of it to the next, like I do. What's becoming increasingly frightening is just how close I am to finishing this life-long goal of mine. In fact, in a certain way I'm really kind of done already. But I'm tacking on new goals to the end now, and I'm sure I'm not finished finding more yet.

I don't know about burning bridges. Look at Rob..he showed me that another option is simply falling into the creek (Note: every Oktoberfest he's ever been to).

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Re: ! jasonanonymous October 14 2004, 12:31:16 UTC
True, I did "fill that void" rather well, didn't I? That really made me smile today. :)

And yeah, Rob's turned into a sorry SOB.

I'm just saying that your journey will never be over - you don't complete it (you silly, silly man), rather you complete SECTIONS of it. Oh, it twists and turns, and sometimes doubles over back upon itself and goes in circles, but the point it that it keeps going.

Since I married THE HOLLIE, I've found this to be even more true than I had previously thought. From moving around, to switching jobs, to buying a house and having twins, somehow I've still managed to acquire a parrot AND a bunch of Mac hardware as well as burrow my way ever deeper into the Mac Retail world. A lot of paths are crossing there, but still, it's a goddamn adventure that never ends, and it's only boring if you perceive it to be that way.

Richard Bach, man. Shannon has him listed somewhere as one of her favorite authors. Funny how it sticks with you. Even if you don't believe the bullshit, it sure makes you re-examine what's important to you and what's not.

There's only so much a guy can accomplish on his "list" by himself. Once you stop running from/to whatever it is you're running to/from long enough to get a good woman behind you (or under... however you wish to do your void fillin'... heh heh heh) I think that only then will you figure out what you've been missing.

...and NOT a girl like, well, you know who.

~jason

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