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Ive been thinking a lot, about life...especially about death. It's on my mind all the time. Recently death concerning my mom rather than myself has been haunting my thoughts. It's so wierd, I was a normal functioning human being before not too long ago. Now I have bad anxiety and thoughts of horrible things and i can't do some things I used to. I cant even ride in a airplane now without freaking out. I don't know what's going on in my head up there but I don't want to be on medication or anything.
On a lighter note, I cannot wait for christmas. I bought so many great gifts this year. I don't know how I afforded it but it's the best year thus far.
Lately I've been wanting to spend a lot of time with my mom, if she's home.
I quit smoking weed as of about a month ago, and I havn't really been drinking too much, but I'd like to start. Hahaha, that's when life was more fun...when I was a drunkard.
Life's not very fun anymore. Depressing actually. I don't know what's causing it. Sometimes I blame it on Chad though. Having a boyfriend isn't fun anymore...it was in the beginning, now its a year and 3 months later and im just like blah. I mean I love him very much and am not considering ending our relationship but I really do miss being single.
I'm a hot mess. I miss my friends. I don't feel young and alive anymore and I'm only 20.
On a lighter note, I cannot wait for christmas. I bought so many great gifts this year. I don't know how I afforded it but it's the best year thus far.
Lately I've been wanting to spend a lot of time with my mom, if she's home.
I quit smoking weed as of about a month ago, and I havn't really been drinking too much, but I'd like to start. Hahaha, that's when life was more fun...when I was a drunkard.
Life's not very fun anymore. Depressing actually. I don't know what's causing it. Sometimes I blame it on Chad though. Having a boyfriend isn't fun anymore...it was in the beginning, now its a year and 3 months later and im just like blah. I mean I love him very much and am not considering ending our relationship but I really do miss being single.
I'm a hot mess. I miss my friends. I don't feel young and alive anymore and I'm only 20.