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I bring so much stress on myself, trying to please everyone, and it never ends up working anyway. Oh well, such is life.
A new episode of THE OC comes on tommorrow, I am very excited! Also, I talked to Ashlee today, who I haven't seen or talked to on the phone in oh, well since graduation (ok, maybe more recently, but who knows?) So it was nice to hear from her. I have acquaintances in college but no one beats the people you've known forever. I know I've only been in college a semester, but I can't think of any new friends I could make in the future knowing me as well as the friends I have now do. I mean, this includes the people I have gone on trips with. I met them like a year or a little more ago, but after some experiences like that, you automatically grow closer. This also includes my younger friends from hs. Maybe I'm just not giving any new or any new-people-to-come a chance, but it's just how I feel now. Especially coming from such a small highschool. Everyone knew each other, literally, forever. And college is only 4 years. It takes alot for me to be close friends with someone. Everyone I hang out with is basically a close friend, I don't really have "social" friends that I just hang out with to do something. If you're in my life, then I really try to give our friendship my all, even though it sometimes may not seem like thta because we all have busy schedules, etc.
"There are so many different ways to be connected to people. There are the people you feel this unspoken connection to, even though there's not even a word for it. There's the people who you've known forever who know you in this way that other people can't because they've seen you change. They've let you change."
I *still* have this black + blue thing on the bottom of my foot...it really hurts and isn't going away any time soon it seems =\
I am gonna go try and sleep, but I doubt that will happen. I'll prob watch more of my Felicity DVDs..
g'nite!
A new episode of THE OC comes on tommorrow, I am very excited! Also, I talked to Ashlee today, who I haven't seen or talked to on the phone in oh, well since graduation (ok, maybe more recently, but who knows?) So it was nice to hear from her. I have acquaintances in college but no one beats the people you've known forever. I know I've only been in college a semester, but I can't think of any new friends I could make in the future knowing me as well as the friends I have now do. I mean, this includes the people I have gone on trips with. I met them like a year or a little more ago, but after some experiences like that, you automatically grow closer. This also includes my younger friends from hs. Maybe I'm just not giving any new or any new-people-to-come a chance, but it's just how I feel now. Especially coming from such a small highschool. Everyone knew each other, literally, forever. And college is only 4 years. It takes alot for me to be close friends with someone. Everyone I hang out with is basically a close friend, I don't really have "social" friends that I just hang out with to do something. If you're in my life, then I really try to give our friendship my all, even though it sometimes may not seem like thta because we all have busy schedules, etc.
"There are so many different ways to be connected to people. There are the people you feel this unspoken connection to, even though there's not even a word for it. There's the people who you've known forever who know you in this way that other people can't because they've seen you change. They've let you change."
I *still* have this black + blue thing on the bottom of my foot...it really hurts and isn't going away any time soon it seems =\
I am gonna go try and sleep, but I doubt that will happen. I'll prob watch more of my Felicity DVDs..
g'nite!