rendevouz tonight
its not like anybody could help what was coming.i dont know why i did it.ive never done it before and i wasnt completely unhappy.so what does it mean?im so scared of starting a life on my own.its so weird not being with anybody,not having anyone to come home to.not relying on someone to keep your side of the bed warm.its just not like me to do such horrible things to hurt someone so badly.ive turned into this monster who eveybody likes but me.why is it so hard to want to stay in such a good thing.this whole college scene is like living a druggie life.
its addicting,ts partying too much,its meeting new people and all of the wrong kinds of people.its doing all the wrong in the world.im like a little kid who just broke free from their parents and trying to take advantage of everything i can get my hands on.whats next?
i dont know if il ever be able to commit to a marriage or kids or anything for that matter.so what is it that makes me so unintelligent to the point that i cant get my shit straight.get it fucking straight.im failing at life and i feel like im going nowhere.and but nowhere i mean absolutely nowhere.
i need to just chill out,smoke a whole bunch and clear my mind.yeah like thats gonna be so much better for my health.
its addicting,ts partying too much,its meeting new people and all of the wrong kinds of people.its doing all the wrong in the world.im like a little kid who just broke free from their parents and trying to take advantage of everything i can get my hands on.whats next?
i dont know if il ever be able to commit to a marriage or kids or anything for that matter.so what is it that makes me so unintelligent to the point that i cant get my shit straight.get it fucking straight.im failing at life and i feel like im going nowhere.and but nowhere i mean absolutely nowhere.
i need to just chill out,smoke a whole bunch and clear my mind.yeah like thats gonna be so much better for my health.