life changes
i walked into my apartment w/the smell of marijuana in the air. i cant say that i havent smoked my fair share of it this fall break, but damn if i dont like to breath nothing but clean air after i have worked out. i couldnt even run 2 miles w/o battling my body to not throw up. WHAT AM I DOING TO MYSELF.
i am fed up again, and am deciding to make changes in my life. im so lazy with how i eat, i dont have any self-control. i am surrounded by laziness that is in my face 24/7. this time around its been real hard for me to put up my THIS IS WHAT IM DOING billboard, with (if you are wanting me to do something outside of this DO NOT ASK) in fine print underneath it.
[i like how calming her music is]
i wish things (relationships) didnt seem so monumental to accomplish. i can maintain friendships, its funny c/im thinking that i dont really want to be in a serious relationship right now. but now i just wonder if i am capable of doing it b/c i havent since high school. perhaps its b/c i havent met anyone worth my time, or i havent found anyone intriguing (spelling) enough. if certain ppl lived closer, my problems would be solved
i need more good ppl in my life. and im wondering why im writing about sad things in this. perhaps its when i want to make changes in my life, and i want to take note of them. i lost my journal, so i dont know where that is right now, could start a new one, but that would be stupid.................
im on the road to happy, im just not there yet
i am fed up again, and am deciding to make changes in my life. im so lazy with how i eat, i dont have any self-control. i am surrounded by laziness that is in my face 24/7. this time around its been real hard for me to put up my THIS IS WHAT IM DOING billboard, with (if you are wanting me to do something outside of this DO NOT ASK) in fine print underneath it.
[i like how calming her music is]
i wish things (relationships) didnt seem so monumental to accomplish. i can maintain friendships, its funny c/im thinking that i dont really want to be in a serious relationship right now. but now i just wonder if i am capable of doing it b/c i havent since high school. perhaps its b/c i havent met anyone worth my time, or i havent found anyone intriguing (spelling) enough. if certain ppl lived closer, my problems would be solved
i need more good ppl in my life. and im wondering why im writing about sad things in this. perhaps its when i want to make changes in my life, and i want to take note of them. i lost my journal, so i dont know where that is right now, could start a new one, but that would be stupid.................
im on the road to happy, im just not there yet