apathy
for some reason, i dont know if its the older i get or what, but more and more, i i should say less and less i care about things. i really could care less about almost everything in my life. perhaps i would care if they were not there, but since they are i do not. there are a few things in my life i care about a lot but outside of that, i do not care about most things.
i dont know why i have started feeling like this. im just doing what i have to do, to get some kind of reward or goal at the end. what im doing right now does not matter to me at all, its just a hoop that i have to jump through. but perhaps also i cant care about much else b/c what i do care about is so involved and massive that, that is all the room i have in the "care about shit" part of my brain.
perhaps?!!
i do not know
i dont know why i have started feeling like this. im just doing what i have to do, to get some kind of reward or goal at the end. what im doing right now does not matter to me at all, its just a hoop that i have to jump through. but perhaps also i cant care about much else b/c what i do care about is so involved and massive that, that is all the room i have in the "care about shit" part of my brain.
perhaps?!!
i do not know