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sometimes when it's late, i drive like a maniac with nothing to lose. rev the engine, like it might jump start something in me that i can't reach except through the desire to ______. i speed down the curviest roads, taking up as much space as i can.
i sat insanly close to the train tracks tonite. it was moving so fast. windows down, i reached my arm out and flicked a cigarette. i was still scared, but i did not throw the car in reverse like i wanted to. i just let myself feel the motion, the air.
i started crying.
i have so many fears.
i think i'll stay up all night and sleep all day tomorrow.
i sat insanly close to the train tracks tonite. it was moving so fast. windows down, i reached my arm out and flicked a cigarette. i was still scared, but i did not throw the car in reverse like i wanted to. i just let myself feel the motion, the air.
i started crying.
i have so many fears.
i think i'll stay up all night and sleep all day tomorrow.