it's been a while

[recklessthinker]

well last time i wrote here was a long time ago i feel like i'm a different person typing... well at least i can keep this lj to remind myself of who i've been at least thats my reason for having it now... i remember why i got it in the first place... cause my ex asked my to. i guess i over did it. i'm going to write my thoughts and some other things for time to time...(when i remember or care). well anyway life is still a drama waiting for the next scene and yeah i still am confused about who i am and what i feel for the world. huh. lets jsut write about today... i found out my sparents have given up on me or so they say, cause they still butt in and try to help. help with what well try and make me the drone they wanted me to be... yeah i know they want the best for me but they can't always give it to me... i'm 17 which sucs and shocks me. in 1 year i go to college *cries* yes i dont want to go. i think we are doomed sorta i'm still not sure nor do i ever think i'll eb cause thanks to people i see life both ways. by that i mean the good and the bads... right now i can tell you i'm going through a bad slump. maybe time can shed some light on things... that and i hope something happens but i'm not gonna say what cause i'm afraid of the poeple who reaad this 8P
i need a life i'm tired of being stuck home alone, it's like bing dead just that you have feeling.