which of His favours would you deny?
during my driving lesson just now we passed by the bazaar and the lights were soo blinding that i almost beat the red light. my instructor said "oiyoooo oiyooooo girl can go jail leh!" HAHA. i felt amost shell-shocked lol. after that, i got my period hahhahaa.
it's alot of toll on me being in the committee because firstly, i don't have hall and secondly, i feel really inferior towards the other committee members. they just seem up there already and im slowly crawling my way up. as much as they are really not judging me but helping me instead, i still feel inadequate as a Muslim and inadvertently, as a committee member. i mean i know receiving Hidayah is hak Allah, but i also feel that i should do something about myself. it's the same concept as practicing what you preach, just that i don't really preach, you know?
and the thing about not having hall is pretty worrying because meetings will obviously last till late and A will always insist on waiting for me even when his classes start early the next day and mine doesn't. It is of course about being sweet and concerned on his part but the guilt trip for me is just huge. i end meetings really late like till ten thirty and by the time he sends me home it'll be eleven and midnight-ish when he reaches his. im guessing he doesnt bathe and wash up so he sleeps at one, if he does he'll sleep at one thirty then he has to wake up by six and now that it's Ramadhan, even earlier for sahur. he rides to school in the early morning and we all know how harsh the singapore roads are towards bikes :( I'm really thankful to have someone being worried about me so should i just stop feeling bad and accept his offers shamefully?:p i think i should, since i really miss spending quality time with him :( i don't even see my friends now, i seem to have alot to do. omg so much complaints no good no good!
k listen to this! it's food for the soul truly:
p.s: anyone has contacts to air kathirah suppliers?
it's alot of toll on me being in the committee because firstly, i don't have hall and secondly, i feel really inferior towards the other committee members. they just seem up there already and im slowly crawling my way up. as much as they are really not judging me but helping me instead, i still feel inadequate as a Muslim and inadvertently, as a committee member. i mean i know receiving Hidayah is hak Allah, but i also feel that i should do something about myself. it's the same concept as practicing what you preach, just that i don't really preach, you know?
and the thing about not having hall is pretty worrying because meetings will obviously last till late and A will always insist on waiting for me even when his classes start early the next day and mine doesn't. It is of course about being sweet and concerned on his part but the guilt trip for me is just huge. i end meetings really late like till ten thirty and by the time he sends me home it'll be eleven and midnight-ish when he reaches his. im guessing he doesnt bathe and wash up so he sleeps at one, if he does he'll sleep at one thirty then he has to wake up by six and now that it's Ramadhan, even earlier for sahur. he rides to school in the early morning and we all know how harsh the singapore roads are towards bikes :( I'm really thankful to have someone being worried about me so should i just stop feeling bad and accept his offers shamefully?:p i think i should, since i really miss spending quality time with him :( i don't even see my friends now, i seem to have alot to do. omg so much complaints no good no good!
k listen to this! it's food for the soul truly:
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