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So I'm flying home for a week.
A few weeks ago I found out my grandma had a brain tumor. Friday they got the biopsy back, found out it was terminal, and gave her a year to live. The tumor + the surgery has left her not completely there.
Now, my grandma is absolutely terrified. She throws an absolute fit if a family member is not in her sight at all times, because she is afraid of dieing without a family member nearby. My mom, her siblings, and her aunt are taking turns doing the round-the-clock-daily thing. Because my aunt works and my uncle is a trucker, my mother has spent only five days apart from my grandma in the last three weeks.
My grandma is demanding my presence. Despite all of us being in financial straits, my mom paid for my plane ticket to spend five days at home next week with them.
God do I not want to go. Not want to see her like this, deal with everyone so stressed, deal with this.
My relationship with my grandmother is not great. I am not necessarily distraught she is dieing (it's sad but not hard on me). The worst part to me is that for an extended period of time, this is going to put a lot of strain on everyone, especially my mother, and how this is a huge disruption to everyone's life.
A few weeks ago I found out my grandma had a brain tumor. Friday they got the biopsy back, found out it was terminal, and gave her a year to live. The tumor + the surgery has left her not completely there.
Now, my grandma is absolutely terrified. She throws an absolute fit if a family member is not in her sight at all times, because she is afraid of dieing without a family member nearby. My mom, her siblings, and her aunt are taking turns doing the round-the-clock-daily thing. Because my aunt works and my uncle is a trucker, my mother has spent only five days apart from my grandma in the last three weeks.
My grandma is demanding my presence. Despite all of us being in financial straits, my mom paid for my plane ticket to spend five days at home next week with them.
God do I not want to go. Not want to see her like this, deal with everyone so stressed, deal with this.
My relationship with my grandmother is not great. I am not necessarily distraught she is dieing (it's sad but not hard on me). The worst part to me is that for an extended period of time, this is going to put a lot of strain on everyone, especially my mother, and how this is a huge disruption to everyone's life.