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October 30th at 12:42 after two days of false labor then 15 hrs of real labor Gavin Roger William joined the Roberts family. I had a walking epi but the dose was not strong enough so they had to come back in and redo my dosage. Pain still is not my thing. I had not realized that even with the epi that the burning of pushing would kill me. I dont really remember what all happened when it came time to push but everyone in the room was telling me to calm down and to just bear through it. They put o2 on my face and the midwife in the room almost climbed on top of me to get me to focus and push. I have been told I just quit for a while and they got really worried. But I did it. He was 6lbs and 10 oz. 19 inches long and a 13inch head. He is the most beautiful boy in my world. I had 2 diffrent nurses stay after their shift to help me with my labor and to see him and also the hospital midwife decided to stay 3 extra hours because she wanted to be there when he was born as well. My parents were there - my boyfriend of 7 months was there and a good friend of mine was also there.
Its hard being a single parent. Gavin does not like to sleep at night. Hes up fuzzy and refusing to be calmed. Even when I was still in the hospital the nurses would not be able to calm him at night so I did not get alot of rest in the hospital. Here at home my mom has helped alot at night. I cry alot and cant wait for these hormones to get out of my system. Hell my boyfriend tells me he loves me and im choked up and all teary eyed. This is not the kinda person I am....but I would never trade my baby boy with any amount of sanity or sleep. I think i just need a support group to lean on and tell me im not a bad monther cause my son wont sleep at night. Also along with the single parenting thing the father of my son has not even tried to come see him. He texted once after I got hold of him with a text about Gavin being born. He just responded with "ok". Thats made me really emotional. Hes such an ass. anyway....on to happier things....
I have a heathy baby boy and a wonderful family and a great boyfriend.
Its hard being a single parent. Gavin does not like to sleep at night. Hes up fuzzy and refusing to be calmed. Even when I was still in the hospital the nurses would not be able to calm him at night so I did not get alot of rest in the hospital. Here at home my mom has helped alot at night. I cry alot and cant wait for these hormones to get out of my system. Hell my boyfriend tells me he loves me and im choked up and all teary eyed. This is not the kinda person I am....but I would never trade my baby boy with any amount of sanity or sleep. I think i just need a support group to lean on and tell me im not a bad monther cause my son wont sleep at night. Also along with the single parenting thing the father of my son has not even tried to come see him. He texted once after I got hold of him with a text about Gavin being born. He just responded with "ok". Thats made me really emotional. Hes such an ass. anyway....on to happier things....
I have a heathy baby boy and a wonderful family and a great boyfriend.