i hurt
i finally had it out. with all the build up i needed to let go. it just grew and i don't think that i could handle it anymore. not that anyone understands. i guess that my childhood and my lifestyle has caught up with me and i am not finding solace in something that i love. all i know is that i have reached the point of no return. i don't know if things will be the same because of stubborness. well, all things will come to head.