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Hey its Rebz!
Hey guys! I am so sorry i have not updated in a while. I am trying to update at least once a week. I want to talk about sumthing that happened recently. It happened yesterday actually, October 15th.
Here goes:
Nat and me planned to go to the mall with two of her friends. We went to the mall. Nat took me over to best buy to say hi to adam. Adam is a college guy she is friends with. They sort of got into a fight. I was just next to them listening to what they were saying. I was not really saying anything to them. I did not really know what to say. Adam said do u really want to talk about this now cuz ur friend is here right now and he said this is personal convo. All she wanted to know was why he blew her off. I felt kind of in the middle of that. Adam then took and then nat left and then i left too. Nat was pretty upset.
She and i went back to the food court cuz her friends were waiting for her there. She told her friends what happened then we went to eat at friendley's in the mall. We were sitting at the table and we ordered our drinks. Then i looked inside my purse. I realized i didnt have any money. I couldn't find any money so i did a stupid thing..the wrong thing. I so feel bad for doing it. I said im gonna go and took off. Maybe taking off wasn't the right thing to do.
After i took off, i called my other best friend jen lus. I told her what happened. She told me she was sick and was not feeling well. She told me that she really wanted to come too but she couldn't due to her not feeling well. She even told me that if she come she would tried to patch things up with me and nat. She said that i should go back into mall and talk it out with nat. The thing is i didn't have the nerve to do that. Last night when i talked to her online, i told her that i didn't want to tell her how i felt right then and she said u could of told me. So yea i walked off. She found it so rude. She said she didn't know i had left. She said she and her friends went around the mall looking for me. I told her im sorry twice. When i talked to her on aim last night, here is the last thing she said to me:
u never talk
and u take off
bye
Next thing she did was blocked me. I went on another sn and she was still online so thats how i knew she blocked me. She even called me selfish. Now i have no way to communicate with her except on the phone. The thing is im more comfortable talking online. This is not the 1st time she has blocked me
It was several weeks ago we got into another fight and she blocked me then but we made up. But now she has blocked me and we have not made up yet.
she said this to me: if i do this again then we are not friends anymore. Yea i agree..walking off was rude...Thanx u guys for listening to me tell u this.
This was a long story. Well to me it seemed long. I felt so bad when a lot of people were mean to her even when she came in last year to take some kind of test. I heard people talking about her. For me, to have to hear people talk shit about my best friend, its like no i don't want to hear it and i wish people would stop. what do u think i should do? should i just let it be for a while? If anyone has any ideas on what i should do, please im me and tell me. or hey email me hehe. So yea thats why im not having a good weekend so far.
The main points:
Nat if u ever read this. I hope u do. i just want to say im really sorry. i did not mean to walk out on u and ur friends. i felt so hideous after i did it. i should of came and talked to u but i didn't. now i feel like such a bad friend. the thing is i want us to work this out. i no we can. i don't want us not to be friends over sumthing silly like this. i can't believe u would block me. u no how i feel about that. i don't like it when people block me. it hurts my feelings so much. u no maybe i have been a bad friend. i told u im sorry about that whole bday party thing and jen is okay with that now too. please lets be friends again. i don't like it when ur mad at me. please i care about our friendship so much. ur one of my best friends. u have to understand that its hard for me to communicate. im trying to work on that. i feel like communicating with people is part of my disability that i have. i have to tell u sumthing. its part of what i want to tell u. u put me in a weird situation yesterday. it was when u were talking to adam and i was there. i felt like the third wheel and i felt like i was part of the problem. i just wanted u to know. i really feel bad the way he is treating u these days, i really am. i really am not selfish. i really do care. i care so much about our friendship, i can't say that enough. i just telling u that if we dont talk, im gonna be really upset. i already am upset about this whole thing. well i hope some day u can find in ur heart to forgive me. ok well i hope u read this. luv ya, rebz
Hey guys! I am so sorry i have not updated in a while. I am trying to update at least once a week. I want to talk about sumthing that happened recently. It happened yesterday actually, October 15th.
Here goes:
Nat and me planned to go to the mall with two of her friends. We went to the mall. Nat took me over to best buy to say hi to adam. Adam is a college guy she is friends with. They sort of got into a fight. I was just next to them listening to what they were saying. I was not really saying anything to them. I did not really know what to say. Adam said do u really want to talk about this now cuz ur friend is here right now and he said this is personal convo. All she wanted to know was why he blew her off. I felt kind of in the middle of that. Adam then took and then nat left and then i left too. Nat was pretty upset.
She and i went back to the food court cuz her friends were waiting for her there. She told her friends what happened then we went to eat at friendley's in the mall. We were sitting at the table and we ordered our drinks. Then i looked inside my purse. I realized i didnt have any money. I couldn't find any money so i did a stupid thing..the wrong thing. I so feel bad for doing it. I said im gonna go and took off. Maybe taking off wasn't the right thing to do.
After i took off, i called my other best friend jen lus. I told her what happened. She told me she was sick and was not feeling well. She told me that she really wanted to come too but she couldn't due to her not feeling well. She even told me that if she come she would tried to patch things up with me and nat. She said that i should go back into mall and talk it out with nat. The thing is i didn't have the nerve to do that. Last night when i talked to her online, i told her that i didn't want to tell her how i felt right then and she said u could of told me. So yea i walked off. She found it so rude. She said she didn't know i had left. She said she and her friends went around the mall looking for me. I told her im sorry twice. When i talked to her on aim last night, here is the last thing she said to me:
u never talk
and u take off
bye
Next thing she did was blocked me. I went on another sn and she was still online so thats how i knew she blocked me. She even called me selfish. Now i have no way to communicate with her except on the phone. The thing is im more comfortable talking online. This is not the 1st time she has blocked me
It was several weeks ago we got into another fight and she blocked me then but we made up. But now she has blocked me and we have not made up yet.
she said this to me: if i do this again then we are not friends anymore. Yea i agree..walking off was rude...Thanx u guys for listening to me tell u this.
This was a long story. Well to me it seemed long. I felt so bad when a lot of people were mean to her even when she came in last year to take some kind of test. I heard people talking about her. For me, to have to hear people talk shit about my best friend, its like no i don't want to hear it and i wish people would stop. what do u think i should do? should i just let it be for a while? If anyone has any ideas on what i should do, please im me and tell me. or hey email me hehe. So yea thats why im not having a good weekend so far.
The main points:
Nat if u ever read this. I hope u do. i just want to say im really sorry. i did not mean to walk out on u and ur friends. i felt so hideous after i did it. i should of came and talked to u but i didn't. now i feel like such a bad friend. the thing is i want us to work this out. i no we can. i don't want us not to be friends over sumthing silly like this. i can't believe u would block me. u no how i feel about that. i don't like it when people block me. it hurts my feelings so much. u no maybe i have been a bad friend. i told u im sorry about that whole bday party thing and jen is okay with that now too. please lets be friends again. i don't like it when ur mad at me. please i care about our friendship so much. ur one of my best friends. u have to understand that its hard for me to communicate. im trying to work on that. i feel like communicating with people is part of my disability that i have. i have to tell u sumthing. its part of what i want to tell u. u put me in a weird situation yesterday. it was when u were talking to adam and i was there. i felt like the third wheel and i felt like i was part of the problem. i just wanted u to know. i really feel bad the way he is treating u these days, i really am. i really am not selfish. i really do care. i care so much about our friendship, i can't say that enough. i just telling u that if we dont talk, im gonna be really upset. i already am upset about this whole thing. well i hope some day u can find in ur heart to forgive me. ok well i hope u read this. luv ya, rebz