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...This is annoyingly inconvenient.
Damn it. Get taken out of the hospital, only to somehow land myself here.
Ridiculous.
[Private // very hackable to Yuuseis (and anyone else, really)]
None of this turned out the way I would've wanted it. Of course not.
Yet, when I think about it... could it have really turned out any differently?
The only conclusion I ever seem to come to is no.
...A better question, though, might be where do I go from here? Where, after a fall like that, does one even begin to pick up the pieces and trudge onwards? I've already decided that the me that lived his life as King was someone I can't recognize as myself. I had tried to fool everyone -- myself and others -- that way, and for a time it worked.
I don't want to do that anymore. There's no point in lying about it.
...However, I'm not in the mood to come out with it entirely. Not yet. Not even to Yuusei. Perhaps in the future, things will change, but now, I'm not ready to fully throw away what I had yet. It's still something of a shock.
Damn it. Get taken out of the hospital, only to somehow land myself here.
Ridiculous.
[Private // very hackable to Yuuseis (and anyone else, really)]
None of this turned out the way I would've wanted it. Of course not.
Yet, when I think about it... could it have really turned out any differently?
The only conclusion I ever seem to come to is no.
...A better question, though, might be where do I go from here? Where, after a fall like that, does one even begin to pick up the pieces and trudge onwards? I've already decided that the me that lived his life as King was someone I can't recognize as myself. I had tried to fool everyone -- myself and others -- that way, and for a time it worked.
I don't want to do that anymore. There's no point in lying about it.
...However, I'm not in the mood to come out with it entirely. Not yet. Not even to Yuusei. Perhaps in the future, things will change, but now, I'm not ready to fully throw away what I had yet. It's still something of a shock.