Drained...and at the same time rejuvenated
Man that last entry drained me a bit. I guess it's just the build up of frustration, waiting to be expressed. Anyways just want to go a little bit to the lighter side of life, maybe not as passionate, but more reflective. I realize that I usually come to you more with profound statements but I just thought that I'd cite where I am as of now.
Things are well, I feel strong in my faith, almost to the point of reading the Bible daily. I find myself turning to it more and more looking to find the truths that it offers. I just felt so comforted with the fact and how the Bible spoke to me one day. The previous night I had played basketball and was confronted with one of the few instances when I become angered...yea I know difficult to believe, an outburst from me. I was livid to say the least, another player felt compelled to throw a blatant elbow into my ribs because I had been playing quite well and he wanted to end that. So at first I kept calm, I thought it's just my imagination this isn't that competitive. I guess he couldn't handle that I was better than him so he followed up this effort down the court again by slamming his elbow into my back. This tested my patience with the guy. I feel that there's only a couple of things that set me off. Either threatening those that I love and care for, and of course when you try to harm me. Needless to say I told myself that if he was to do this again, I was going to react to it. Luckily my friend made the last basket and we won. I feel that it was God's way of getting me away from the situation.
I'm not the type to vocalize my anger, normally channeling it, addressing it, and leaving it behind because it does nothing but consume me with anger. To get back to the Bible I read in it the next day and was consoled by its words and it all made sense to me, though those instances need to be dealt with delicately I need to focus the mind further than normal and remember the words of the Bible. It's not for me to punish, it's in the hands of the Lord and I can only hope that the fact that God was probably absent from his life, that he to can embrace the justice of the Lord and be confident that he was not wronged but rather he was blessed with other gifts. Just to update you all I'm reading in Ecclesiastes.
I just love the fact that there is so much that can be applied to daily life in the Bible. It almost doesn't seem fair to those unaware of its truth, but then I realize that all are able and capable of hearing His words, it's all a matter of listening.
Another high not I was called up to the competition squad of Club Tennis, they've had some problems with some of the second squad, so this shall mean substantial consumption of my time retooling my game. As you can guess this was quite pleasing to hear. This means that my ranking on the team has gone up from the reserve ranks to one of the top 8. Brilliant to say the least.
Things are well, I feel strong in my faith, almost to the point of reading the Bible daily. I find myself turning to it more and more looking to find the truths that it offers. I just felt so comforted with the fact and how the Bible spoke to me one day. The previous night I had played basketball and was confronted with one of the few instances when I become angered...yea I know difficult to believe, an outburst from me. I was livid to say the least, another player felt compelled to throw a blatant elbow into my ribs because I had been playing quite well and he wanted to end that. So at first I kept calm, I thought it's just my imagination this isn't that competitive. I guess he couldn't handle that I was better than him so he followed up this effort down the court again by slamming his elbow into my back. This tested my patience with the guy. I feel that there's only a couple of things that set me off. Either threatening those that I love and care for, and of course when you try to harm me. Needless to say I told myself that if he was to do this again, I was going to react to it. Luckily my friend made the last basket and we won. I feel that it was God's way of getting me away from the situation.
I'm not the type to vocalize my anger, normally channeling it, addressing it, and leaving it behind because it does nothing but consume me with anger. To get back to the Bible I read in it the next day and was consoled by its words and it all made sense to me, though those instances need to be dealt with delicately I need to focus the mind further than normal and remember the words of the Bible. It's not for me to punish, it's in the hands of the Lord and I can only hope that the fact that God was probably absent from his life, that he to can embrace the justice of the Lord and be confident that he was not wronged but rather he was blessed with other gifts. Just to update you all I'm reading in Ecclesiastes.
I just love the fact that there is so much that can be applied to daily life in the Bible. It almost doesn't seem fair to those unaware of its truth, but then I realize that all are able and capable of hearing His words, it's all a matter of listening.
Another high not I was called up to the competition squad of Club Tennis, they've had some problems with some of the second squad, so this shall mean substantial consumption of my time retooling my game. As you can guess this was quite pleasing to hear. This means that my ranking on the team has gone up from the reserve ranks to one of the top 8. Brilliant to say the least.