Masques
Michelle's painting raised an interesting opinion from the prof. One I completely disagreed with in that context, but overall a necessary message.
In the interior portion of her painting, she had a masque (i.e. masquerade ball masque, as opposed to a painted white Capt. Kirk mask). Prof. went on a tangent about how the masque is communicating to us that this is her private space and how we hide our true selves behind the masques that we put on everyday, yada x3. I agreed ultimately with the "This is my personal life and prying eyes need not be involved in it" that she got to after a fashion, but I don't think for a minute it was an intentional message.
@ any rate, I know I hide behind my masques. My general masque is that of someone who is not only confident in what he's doing but generally happy. The keynote for this masque is "It's nice to be me." and regardless of what happens I try and keep my chin up and work through it, because after all it's not what happens to you but how you deal with it that is the true measure of your character. And realistically, if I would let any bad feelings I had show, it wouldn't gain anyone anything.
I can't keep the masque up though.
Trying to remember what something that was once more valuable to you than anything else means to you now and not being able to.
Knowing you have one shot at life and that shot could be over at any instant...and despite all this, living with regrets that go back 5 years or more.
Letting your past haunt you because, in your mind, it always seems to come back to that one moment, that one incident when you were too paralyzed by fear to do what anyone with a sense of decency would have.
Having scenes of uncontrollable rage play out in your head on an infinte loop, when you stand up for yourself by knocking everyone else down for good;
Hating your life enough to throw it away and pay no mind.
In the interior portion of her painting, she had a masque (i.e. masquerade ball masque, as opposed to a painted white Capt. Kirk mask). Prof. went on a tangent about how the masque is communicating to us that this is her private space and how we hide our true selves behind the masques that we put on everyday, yada x3. I agreed ultimately with the "This is my personal life and prying eyes need not be involved in it" that she got to after a fashion, but I don't think for a minute it was an intentional message.
@ any rate, I know I hide behind my masques. My general masque is that of someone who is not only confident in what he's doing but generally happy. The keynote for this masque is "It's nice to be me." and regardless of what happens I try and keep my chin up and work through it, because after all it's not what happens to you but how you deal with it that is the true measure of your character. And realistically, if I would let any bad feelings I had show, it wouldn't gain anyone anything.
I can't keep the masque up though.
Trying to remember what something that was once more valuable to you than anything else means to you now and not being able to.
Knowing you have one shot at life and that shot could be over at any instant...and despite all this, living with regrets that go back 5 years or more.
Letting your past haunt you because, in your mind, it always seems to come back to that one moment, that one incident when you were too paralyzed by fear to do what anyone with a sense of decency would have.
Having scenes of uncontrollable rage play out in your head on an infinte loop, when you stand up for yourself by knocking everyone else down for good;
Hating your life enough to throw it away and pay no mind.