Ugh
Ugh. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO stressed about finals it's not even funny. Especially my geometry final. Because I SUCK at geometry, and we have to draw this picture TO SCALE, and find the AREAS AND PERIMETERS!! And there has to be 25 different shapes total, 11 different polygons, and, then, to top the whole fucking sundae off, cherry included, a two-page report on what we learned and how it all relates to geometry or some crap like that. EWW! I totally loved Mrs. Smith. Sure, she didn't know what the hell she was doing, but she let me turn in late work for full credit and is always willing to explain things and show you the answers to the worksheets, oh, and she lets you redo some tests so you can get half the points you got wrong back. AND SHE PICKS NOW TO BE A HARD-ASS!!!!! Also, I think I might be okay on my english final. We have two hours to write an essay about one of the friar's quotes and how it relates to Rom+Jul and how it relates to the real world, using evidence from the play. Still, I SHOULD be working on the pre-write, but I got home from my lesson, and was like, "Fuck this." I've been listening to The Beatles, playing cards, and that's about it. OH, and my science final, I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THE HELL ANY OF THE THINGS ON THE REVIEW ARE!!!!!!!!! And it's so frustrating, becaue I DO like science, just, I don't know... I've been so lazy, and then I wonder why my grades suffer. It's aggravating, because I am very smart, one of the smartest people I know, but I feel like I've gotten stupid compared to last year. Serioudly, my vocabulary is awful. AWFUL! Swim final'll be easy, spanish moderate, because Eme is such a sweetheart and gave us stuff about our final in May. TE QUIERO EME!
Anywho, yeah, it sucks. And I've been in such bad moods these past few months, and it's frustrating, because I feel like a total bitch and sometimes it's just too much! I'd like to wallow alone, but then I hate that because I think of worse things, especially embarrasing things which then in turn makes me feel even worse.
God, and I'm so depressed now! I'm on my period, so I have all this water weight, but I actually GAINED two pounds since yesterday! So, I'm glad I have to make up swimming stuff, because I desperately need to lose some weight. It's stupid, but I think I'd be so much happier if I lost like, 5 or 10 or 15 pounds! Yeah, that'd be nice. SO IT STARTS TOMORROW!!!!! I will (maybe) be posting what I eat and what exercise I've done that day. I am totally serious about this! I'll most definitely lose weight in Arizona, because we swim, like, every day. Last time when I was there in August, we only didn't swim four days. Once, when I went to a movie with my grandpa and aunt, when it was (suprise!) raining, when my grandpa had an appointment, and the coolest day of the month. It was 96 and the water was freezing, so we dipped in then got out. Usually we swim for, like, three hours or something, and the current is heavy, and (surprise again!) I'm not heavy enough to float, so I have to wear a lifevest. So it'll be good practice to swim against the current. And, maybe, I'll go running there.
Anywho, yeah, it sucks. And I've been in such bad moods these past few months, and it's frustrating, because I feel like a total bitch and sometimes it's just too much! I'd like to wallow alone, but then I hate that because I think of worse things, especially embarrasing things which then in turn makes me feel even worse.
God, and I'm so depressed now! I'm on my period, so I have all this water weight, but I actually GAINED two pounds since yesterday! So, I'm glad I have to make up swimming stuff, because I desperately need to lose some weight. It's stupid, but I think I'd be so much happier if I lost like, 5 or 10 or 15 pounds! Yeah, that'd be nice. SO IT STARTS TOMORROW!!!!! I will (maybe) be posting what I eat and what exercise I've done that day. I am totally serious about this! I'll most definitely lose weight in Arizona, because we swim, like, every day. Last time when I was there in August, we only didn't swim four days. Once, when I went to a movie with my grandpa and aunt, when it was (suprise!) raining, when my grandpa had an appointment, and the coolest day of the month. It was 96 and the water was freezing, so we dipped in then got out. Usually we swim for, like, three hours or something, and the current is heavy, and (surprise again!) I'm not heavy enough to float, so I have to wear a lifevest. So it'll be good practice to swim against the current. And, maybe, I'll go running there.