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[rebex]

this is a message addressed to
once upon a time
when
i believed in a boy
who didn't believe in himself
and now believes in something else
or someone else
or nothing at all
and i never saw
the difference

my heart grew and grew
while he shrank and shrank
twisted and turned
and i still believe in him

like a fool, or a blinded lover
i still believe in him

he is a shadow that slips
between cracks in stories
maybe you've seen him

wearing a shifting soul he survives,
but unrecognizable to those he loved most
i wish to find what i lost
i love an invisible

the cliche of cliches
unrequited
love
turned toxic by fear
translated by others
who manipulate poison for pleasure

what is not there, what once was, and what will never be

i know you are no longer who you were
you severed your nerves
disoriented your heart

i love, my love
i love, my love

i love
love

but i don't love what you think you have become

so i grow, and learn to love again

this poem is not for you
rather it is a message in a bottle
to be carried through you