skin is where this revolution is gonna begin...
weird coupla days. fought with jeremy, walked out without saying goodbye because he's fucking ASSHOLE to whitney but oh so nice to me. i got halfway down the road and realized i didn't want to leave mad and i was cold so i went back and talked it out. he was really upset that i walked out, had tears in his eyes, which was disturbing. then i've dreamed about the same guy two nights in a row, who looks almost exactly like zeke and will, the brother of ben whatshisname from casper (shoni'll know, sean's friend?) but isn't zeke. someone i've never met before. oh so devestatingly gorgeous and sweet. will came into the store yesterday on his way to denver going to see social D. realized he's not as much younger as i thought he was, only two years. i remarked today that chris from med bow was only 19 (i thought he was older than me) and alyx said "ohhh, robbing the cradle" and all i could do was roll my eyes. Why does age trip people up so bad? I don't understand it either, and i'm guilty of it.
i had dinner with brit, jodi, dave, jason, whitney, clay and shannon at jodi and daves last night. ben called me. i love ben, in more of a platonic way than anything else. i've never heard him talk bad about anyone, he's always smiling, and nothing seems to bother him too much. what a beautiful person. then we came to our house and watched half of citizen kane and everyone was falling asleep so we had a sleepover. drove brit to work this morning. at work now myself. saw the crazy guy who speaks french arguing with the employees at the soup kitchen. what kind of an asshole gets himself kicked out of a soup kitchen? no one would hand out flyers at the vagina monologues for me because i have to work. everyone can do it later in the evening, but no one will do it without me. i just made the flyers. clay's right, it is frustrating: the only really important thing going on in our community and no one steps up to combat it. no one helped do the flyers. they went to the spectrum meetings, and jen from WAN and SPECTRUM was cool about it. i wish i wasn't alone in this. i don't understand why clay and jason "didn't feel comfortable handing out the flyers ourselves" not my decision to make. oh well, we'll try tonight and see what happens. smiling like it's no one's business. can i rewind this tape to see you again???? please?????
i had dinner with brit, jodi, dave, jason, whitney, clay and shannon at jodi and daves last night. ben called me. i love ben, in more of a platonic way than anything else. i've never heard him talk bad about anyone, he's always smiling, and nothing seems to bother him too much. what a beautiful person. then we came to our house and watched half of citizen kane and everyone was falling asleep so we had a sleepover. drove brit to work this morning. at work now myself. saw the crazy guy who speaks french arguing with the employees at the soup kitchen. what kind of an asshole gets himself kicked out of a soup kitchen? no one would hand out flyers at the vagina monologues for me because i have to work. everyone can do it later in the evening, but no one will do it without me. i just made the flyers. clay's right, it is frustrating: the only really important thing going on in our community and no one steps up to combat it. no one helped do the flyers. they went to the spectrum meetings, and jen from WAN and SPECTRUM was cool about it. i wish i wasn't alone in this. i don't understand why clay and jason "didn't feel comfortable handing out the flyers ourselves" not my decision to make. oh well, we'll try tonight and see what happens. smiling like it's no one's business. can i rewind this tape to see you again???? please?????