i'm sinking... and so i trick myself, just like everybody else...
too much of the smiths and the cure today. was supposed to help out with obsidian but i can barely keep my eyes open or from being full of tears. devestatingly depressed and i can't figure out why. all of the sudden, around 11, BOOM! and it's just gotten worse since 11. a doppelganger that is demanding to be let out, perhaps. maybe the same kind of doppelganger as miss alma (bekah will be the only one to catch the reference). i'm so frustrated and depressed i want to explode. maybe i will. one can only hope. so many things i want to scream, to demand, but afraid of offending or alienating. i don't even know why i'm posting this. goodbye.