Give me a reason, to end this discussion...
3 months, sorry. I haven't lost my passion to write, it's more like I've not found the time to update. The consequence of a 8 to 5 job. The short of it, just in case I run long and you get bored, is basically just doing things to keep me entertained, but not much new besides my new car. Yeah, if you haven't heard yet, I bought a BMW 335XI, Sedan, in Sparkling Graphite, on August 4th. That's been the most exciting thing for me as of late. I love driving it, so I can't complain. Every moment I spend in it is exciting and new for whatever reason. It looks very similar to this (And the way I drive it, I'm sure that blur affect happens as well =P) http://www.nicoclub.com/reviews/images/g35-compare-3.jpg
Naw no Girlfriend as of today. Honestly, doesn't bug me. Recently, it just hit me I spent 6 years with that as my greatest focus. Everything else was like a "Distraction" to me. Bah, I wasted so much time. Yeah I enjoyed things, but I always let the hang over my neck like an Albatross (Rime of the Ancient Mariner, you should read it some time, it's really good). Just trying to focus on the other things I honestly do find important but never gave focus. I do hate how people have to remind me of it now as if it's critical. You know what, yeah, it'd be nice to have someone, but obviously it's just not meant for me right now. Don't remind me, that's just aggravating. Trust me, I hear it enough from Media and Society, I don't need my family and friends saying it to. I get it, I'm alone, the feeling is supposed to suck. I'm not trying to make it not suck.
Hmmm, what else is new? No Trips this time around. I spent most of August and September just getting things done. OHHH my birthday was the 25th, as it is every year (duh). The party was fun. Just hung around, played board games, tried to get my friends to socialize. It was humid as anything though, so that really soured some of the party. It was ok though, the evening Lan Party was intensity. The Mafia game afterwards was just as nuts. I do have to give a big thank you to Justin Strafer for hosting it for me. I appreciate that greatly man.
Other than that, I just keep going through this or that. Stupid shit, most of the time I make a bigger deal than I should. Yeah, I'm a demanding asshole for whatever reason. I expect too much of people, just like I expect too much of what I own. I guess that's another footnote as to why no girlfriend, I'm a little to picky and have high expectations, so I'd want only the best when it comes to a GF. Stupid me, it's why I isolate people in end. I've been slowly learning, just gotta accept things as is. Not to the point I should change who I am, but just be whatever. Doesn't mean I should grow close to those I just feel up to par. It just means gotta accept people for who they are. I just gotta find a group of people who fit who I am. Something else I realized recently, my different groups of friends have one or two qualities of who I am, but I don't have a group of friends who really compliment me. Finding a group of bohemians to roll with would definitely make my current situation a little more fun to go through.
Work's been good to be good as of late. I got promoted a few weeks ago. Pretty exciting, of course that came with a raise. That was cool. Things are tense right now, a lot of the competitors are catching up to us, so we are trying to step it up and open up the gap again.
What's coming up? Hmmm, moving out hopefully by December or January. Keep everyone posted since we will probably through a house warming party. Probably going to go to the Philippines in December as well. A much needed getaway. I don't think it can come soon enough. I need a break, between personal issues and work issues, I have no time to just let it all seep out. I spend half my weekends just trying to let the stress and worries pass out of me, but as of late it's like the weekends just bring on their own set of problems. Ugh, a break from life, can't wait!
Loosing a lot of weight, I'm pretty much where I was at the peak of my DDR days. I'm hoping to go past that and really get into decent shape. Funny enough I'm doing it more for experiment reasons rather than health or anything. Just a theory I have about personality and aesthetics. If I'm right, I'll definitely write a book about it, without a doubt. Stupid society and it's stupid perceptions.
Any way, I've been trying to keep up with those of you who still write in here. God it's been so hard to though. I'm doing my best, I Promise. I did Join Facebook, but I had to because of this girl I met from France. It was the most effective way for us to communicate with each other (forgot to metion her, her name's Mathilde. Met her in Atalanta when I was there on training. We had a awesome "date" [we went to a ball game, I mean it was more as of friends, she wanted to see a baseball game and I wanted to see Turner stadium.]. A Wonderful girl who was very wonderful to be with that night.). So if you want to add me go nuts.
I guess, I'll talk to you all when I can, take care.
...See You Space Cowboy.
Naw no Girlfriend as of today. Honestly, doesn't bug me. Recently, it just hit me I spent 6 years with that as my greatest focus. Everything else was like a "Distraction" to me. Bah, I wasted so much time. Yeah I enjoyed things, but I always let the hang over my neck like an Albatross (Rime of the Ancient Mariner, you should read it some time, it's really good). Just trying to focus on the other things I honestly do find important but never gave focus. I do hate how people have to remind me of it now as if it's critical. You know what, yeah, it'd be nice to have someone, but obviously it's just not meant for me right now. Don't remind me, that's just aggravating. Trust me, I hear it enough from Media and Society, I don't need my family and friends saying it to. I get it, I'm alone, the feeling is supposed to suck. I'm not trying to make it not suck.
Hmmm, what else is new? No Trips this time around. I spent most of August and September just getting things done. OHHH my birthday was the 25th, as it is every year (duh). The party was fun. Just hung around, played board games, tried to get my friends to socialize. It was humid as anything though, so that really soured some of the party. It was ok though, the evening Lan Party was intensity. The Mafia game afterwards was just as nuts. I do have to give a big thank you to Justin Strafer for hosting it for me. I appreciate that greatly man.
Other than that, I just keep going through this or that. Stupid shit, most of the time I make a bigger deal than I should. Yeah, I'm a demanding asshole for whatever reason. I expect too much of people, just like I expect too much of what I own. I guess that's another footnote as to why no girlfriend, I'm a little to picky and have high expectations, so I'd want only the best when it comes to a GF. Stupid me, it's why I isolate people in end. I've been slowly learning, just gotta accept things as is. Not to the point I should change who I am, but just be whatever. Doesn't mean I should grow close to those I just feel up to par. It just means gotta accept people for who they are. I just gotta find a group of people who fit who I am. Something else I realized recently, my different groups of friends have one or two qualities of who I am, but I don't have a group of friends who really compliment me. Finding a group of bohemians to roll with would definitely make my current situation a little more fun to go through.
Work's been good to be good as of late. I got promoted a few weeks ago. Pretty exciting, of course that came with a raise. That was cool. Things are tense right now, a lot of the competitors are catching up to us, so we are trying to step it up and open up the gap again.
What's coming up? Hmmm, moving out hopefully by December or January. Keep everyone posted since we will probably through a house warming party. Probably going to go to the Philippines in December as well. A much needed getaway. I don't think it can come soon enough. I need a break, between personal issues and work issues, I have no time to just let it all seep out. I spend half my weekends just trying to let the stress and worries pass out of me, but as of late it's like the weekends just bring on their own set of problems. Ugh, a break from life, can't wait!
Loosing a lot of weight, I'm pretty much where I was at the peak of my DDR days. I'm hoping to go past that and really get into decent shape. Funny enough I'm doing it more for experiment reasons rather than health or anything. Just a theory I have about personality and aesthetics. If I'm right, I'll definitely write a book about it, without a doubt. Stupid society and it's stupid perceptions.
Any way, I've been trying to keep up with those of you who still write in here. God it's been so hard to though. I'm doing my best, I Promise. I did Join Facebook, but I had to because of this girl I met from France. It was the most effective way for us to communicate with each other (forgot to metion her, her name's Mathilde. Met her in Atalanta when I was there on training. We had a awesome "date" [we went to a ball game, I mean it was more as of friends, she wanted to see a baseball game and I wanted to see Turner stadium.]. A Wonderful girl who was very wonderful to be with that night.). So if you want to add me go nuts.
I guess, I'll talk to you all when I can, take care.
...See You Space Cowboy.