More than a feeling...
3 weeks. Damn, I really wanted to update earlier, but it's so hard with work and the like. To be honest, I haven't done much in the last three weeks except go snow boarding, so I guess I'll start there and see where things go.
Yeah three Saturday's ago, went snow boarding at Mountain Creek. My what an adventure. Woke up early (8 am to be precise) and get my stuff together while I waited for Bob and Justin to get to my house. Bob called me to tell me he would be a little late, which was cool. Justin did not however so I was a bit concerned, so I called him. Lucky me, me calling him basically gave him his wake up call. So... 9am rolls around and we finally organize and leave. Next was getting there. VZ Navigate is a great thing (it's Verizon's GPS/Navigation service that you can use through your phone.). The only thing is Uusually when Justin/VZ Navigate and I mix, we get mixed results. We decide to give it a go and give it another chance. So about an hour later we are approaching our destination. 2 Miles out, Justin gets this funny feeling we aren't at Mountain Creek. Funny enough he was right. So decide to check VZ navigate and see where we went wrong. Sure enough we were at the spot I told VZ navigate to be at IN MT VERNON NJ (Not Vernon). So an hour's worth of driving to correct my human error and we finally arrive at the Creek close to noon. Get our tickets and we head over to the bunny slopes to give me the 101 on Snow boarding (yes I have never snow boarded before, this was my first time). After about an hour and a half, I needed a break so I told Bob and Justin go do a run and come back and we'll see where we stand. In the mean time, I was hunting for my friend who was supposed to have been at the creek at 10am. Of course she's always late to things (and not by 5 minutes, but by like 5 hours) and sure enough she had just arrived at the creek maybe 1:30, 2pm. So after a bit of looking I find here and we say hi. She seemed eager to hit the slopes so I tell her just call me later or something (considering she was dying to hang out after snowboarding I left that line of communication open.) So she went to the bit tougher hill with this guy she was with and I just sat there and rested a bit more. Not 5 minutes later, Bob and Justin Call saying they were done with a run so I go meet them. I decide it's best to learn by being thrown into the fire, so we all went back up the mountain to do a green course run. I must say I thought I did terrible, but Justin and Bob said I did great for a first timer. I must have went down a few hundred yards before my body gave and I just had to stop. I probably did a 1/3 of the mountain before having to walk down it. This decision was made at about 4pm, so I lasted approximately 4 hours on the mountain. Again they said I did awesome, though I'm inclined to disagree. In any sense, it was fun and I do want to go again. I'd prefer to go to a much quieter mountain, one without as many people, so I have more room to work with and practice. The hardest part of being on the trail was avoiding people while controlling my speed. ACTUALLY the hardest part was getting up when you were down. I can't just pop my self up, let alone with a snowboard on my feet. I'm hoping next time I can get that down so I can make one complete run. It was a wake up call though, I definitely need to get my business in order so I can figure out a work out regiment.
It's good to get a wake up call every now and then. Sometimes, when you go unchallenged or unquestioned for too long, it builds an unhealthy ego (Though the opposite also leads to an unhealthy ego.). Sometimes it comes from the usual sources, other times it comes from the most unlikely of places. Those who care about you will give you this cold slap when you need it the most. You know, You'd think it sucks to get that, but honestly, it felt rather refreshing. As if you knew all that time, you just were in horrible denial. I'm glad some people are willing to step up and say what they need to to my face, knowing that people can be honest is also just as refreshing as being woken up.
In the spirit of rejuvenation, for the first time in a while, I didn't come into Valentine's day an awful depressive mess. I wasn't pining over any one or worried about being alone. Actually for the most part I spent the whole day reading and playing video games (With a little aside for some chess when I could.). I had a free day due to the snow, and the personal day I took. It was weird. It was like Valentine's Day was there, but I didn't know it existed. Then again for the first time in a while, I'm not pining over some girl or the need for some girl. Again a nice change of pace from the usual affair.
Other than that, not much else has been going on besides work. Just spend the weekends relaxing and hanging out with friends. I do what I can to enjoy, but because I just love to lay down and relax I don't make too much of a push to do a crazy weekend extravaganza. So that leads to a mostly boring past 3 weeks. What can I say, even though I have the free time, just a lack of motivation.
It's this lack of motivation though that really, just makes it harder and harder to write in my journal. I feel like there isn't any interesting to add or put in here. Maybe it's because I'm over thinking this along with everything else. It's who I am, I over think things a lot. I've been trying lately to stop playing all the lines and just doing something. Yeah, it's a huge road block into just feeling. What I mean to say is, I can't just be emotional sometimes cause I need just cause or a full understanding. Something like Love, hate, joy... I have to experience it with due cause. Granted I enjoy things more through this, I miss out on so much because of it as well. I lost out on a wonderful things because I had to have full understanding of the situations... of her... instead of just doing. Cest'la vie. That's part of wisdom and growing up. Next time I know better, life's too short... just do it.
Uggggg... Yeah this is all I have for now. Sorry for such a pathetic entry (though it's not long so I'm sure most of you are happy about that.). I'll try to update relatively soon next time. I'll leave you dear reader with this awesome super hero/heroine compatibility meme.
EDIT: FREAKING LINK DOESN'T WORK! well you loose out on viewers comic vine.
See you Space Cowboy...
Yeah three Saturday's ago, went snow boarding at Mountain Creek. My what an adventure. Woke up early (8 am to be precise) and get my stuff together while I waited for Bob and Justin to get to my house. Bob called me to tell me he would be a little late, which was cool. Justin did not however so I was a bit concerned, so I called him. Lucky me, me calling him basically gave him his wake up call. So... 9am rolls around and we finally organize and leave. Next was getting there. VZ Navigate is a great thing (it's Verizon's GPS/Navigation service that you can use through your phone.). The only thing is Uusually when Justin/VZ Navigate and I mix, we get mixed results. We decide to give it a go and give it another chance. So about an hour later we are approaching our destination. 2 Miles out, Justin gets this funny feeling we aren't at Mountain Creek. Funny enough he was right. So decide to check VZ navigate and see where we went wrong. Sure enough we were at the spot I told VZ navigate to be at IN MT VERNON NJ (Not Vernon). So an hour's worth of driving to correct my human error and we finally arrive at the Creek close to noon. Get our tickets and we head over to the bunny slopes to give me the 101 on Snow boarding (yes I have never snow boarded before, this was my first time). After about an hour and a half, I needed a break so I told Bob and Justin go do a run and come back and we'll see where we stand. In the mean time, I was hunting for my friend who was supposed to have been at the creek at 10am. Of course she's always late to things (and not by 5 minutes, but by like 5 hours) and sure enough she had just arrived at the creek maybe 1:30, 2pm. So after a bit of looking I find here and we say hi. She seemed eager to hit the slopes so I tell her just call me later or something (considering she was dying to hang out after snowboarding I left that line of communication open.) So she went to the bit tougher hill with this guy she was with and I just sat there and rested a bit more. Not 5 minutes later, Bob and Justin Call saying they were done with a run so I go meet them. I decide it's best to learn by being thrown into the fire, so we all went back up the mountain to do a green course run. I must say I thought I did terrible, but Justin and Bob said I did great for a first timer. I must have went down a few hundred yards before my body gave and I just had to stop. I probably did a 1/3 of the mountain before having to walk down it. This decision was made at about 4pm, so I lasted approximately 4 hours on the mountain. Again they said I did awesome, though I'm inclined to disagree. In any sense, it was fun and I do want to go again. I'd prefer to go to a much quieter mountain, one without as many people, so I have more room to work with and practice. The hardest part of being on the trail was avoiding people while controlling my speed. ACTUALLY the hardest part was getting up when you were down. I can't just pop my self up, let alone with a snowboard on my feet. I'm hoping next time I can get that down so I can make one complete run. It was a wake up call though, I definitely need to get my business in order so I can figure out a work out regiment.
It's good to get a wake up call every now and then. Sometimes, when you go unchallenged or unquestioned for too long, it builds an unhealthy ego (Though the opposite also leads to an unhealthy ego.). Sometimes it comes from the usual sources, other times it comes from the most unlikely of places. Those who care about you will give you this cold slap when you need it the most. You know, You'd think it sucks to get that, but honestly, it felt rather refreshing. As if you knew all that time, you just were in horrible denial. I'm glad some people are willing to step up and say what they need to to my face, knowing that people can be honest is also just as refreshing as being woken up.
In the spirit of rejuvenation, for the first time in a while, I didn't come into Valentine's day an awful depressive mess. I wasn't pining over any one or worried about being alone. Actually for the most part I spent the whole day reading and playing video games (With a little aside for some chess when I could.). I had a free day due to the snow, and the personal day I took. It was weird. It was like Valentine's Day was there, but I didn't know it existed. Then again for the first time in a while, I'm not pining over some girl or the need for some girl. Again a nice change of pace from the usual affair.
Other than that, not much else has been going on besides work. Just spend the weekends relaxing and hanging out with friends. I do what I can to enjoy, but because I just love to lay down and relax I don't make too much of a push to do a crazy weekend extravaganza. So that leads to a mostly boring past 3 weeks. What can I say, even though I have the free time, just a lack of motivation.
It's this lack of motivation though that really, just makes it harder and harder to write in my journal. I feel like there isn't any interesting to add or put in here. Maybe it's because I'm over thinking this along with everything else. It's who I am, I over think things a lot. I've been trying lately to stop playing all the lines and just doing something. Yeah, it's a huge road block into just feeling. What I mean to say is, I can't just be emotional sometimes cause I need just cause or a full understanding. Something like Love, hate, joy... I have to experience it with due cause. Granted I enjoy things more through this, I miss out on so much because of it as well. I lost out on a wonderful things because I had to have full understanding of the situations... of her... instead of just doing. Cest'la vie. That's part of wisdom and growing up. Next time I know better, life's too short... just do it.
Uggggg... Yeah this is all I have for now. Sorry for such a pathetic entry (though it's not long so I'm sure most of you are happy about that.). I'll try to update relatively soon next time. I'll leave you dear reader with this awesome super hero/heroine compatibility meme.
EDIT: FREAKING LINK DOESN'T WORK! well you loose out on viewers comic vine.
See you Space Cowboy...