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Well....as Graduation from the Police Academy approaches I have to wonder...why have I chosen this path? Is it the best for me? Do I really want to spend my life being a public servent? Giving my all every day and night, praying to God that I will make it home tonight...all the while I'm being treated like shit from the public...hearing people say FUCK THE POLICE...dumbass punks with no respect for the freedom and liberty they have. People both in the military and here at home have given there lives for them, and so many would spit in their faces it they had the chance...why should I spend my life working for a public that doesn't care whether I live or die. However, I am kind of tied down to Mobile. I have worked for the same place for 2 years. I have great benefits. I have a house I rent, and i'll be moving into my own apartment very soon. I have had plans to marry for a while....but the child in me has been keeping me from making that step. The older I get the more I realize that if I had a child right now....I would be almost 40 when the graduated....I can expect to die around 60-70....so that doesn't give me very long to enjoy my kids and grandkids. I want to be a geologist or archeaologist, yes, but I want to be a husband, a dad, a paw-paw....I want to be able to kick back cold ones with my son after he becomes a man. I want to drive to ballet recitals or football games. No, I don't think I want to be a Police Officer forever, but maybe it's a start. I still want to open a bar with my brother...mayeb I can go back to south and get a business degree...learn to manage a business. I would like to start my own BrewPub....with me in charge of the brewery and kitchen and Bret in charge of the bar and entertainment. We could have a pub-type atmosphere with maybe a Curling Table or some old video games like Space Invader. We could serve Guiness and Miller on tap as well as my homebrew. It would be great. Raise kids in the South, in God's Country. Attend church every Sunday and coach little league baseball.....that would be the life....that would be the life.....forget fame and fortune, I want a good family and a good job. I could careless about the money. I just want to be happy........maybe one day I will