eh
Thats about how I feel...... eh. I had my first exam of the semester today, I felt pretty good about it, at least 82% in the worst case, I wend ahead and double checked all my answers, I finished the exam in 20 mins, but was one of the last ones out. A lot of people left as soon as they were finished, I seem to have a problem with matricies where I start switching the numbers arround by mistake. I found one mistake so it wasn't time wasted. I've been studying for my MSE exam on friday for about 6 hours. I had to take a nap today because of my lack of sleep last night. Not only did I go to bed around midnight, but I woke up at 3:00 because I couldn't breathe and I had a dry tounge, which bothered me the rest of the day. Fucking alergies made my nose stuffed to the max, and I used a nose spray, finally cleared up after about 15 mins, so I probablly got around 5 hours of sleep last night. It's so annoying when people sit there and sniff in the middle of class, and I feel so terrible for doing it as well, but during certain parts of the summer I get terrible alergies. Funny thing is that Ive never had alergies my entire life, and I doubt it's the environment that I spend my tine around, I've been in the same place for the past 10 years or so and never been like this.
My eyes are so blurry right now, just exhaustion, and reading n taking notes for the past few hours.
My goddamn computer chair broke today, I was thrilled. One of the legs snapped, it is still somewhat useable but only has 4 legs left supporting it (it is one of those roller chairs) so if I lean to one side too far the whole chair will fall over. Not that excited bout spending $50+ on a new chair.
le0pard msg'd me on irc today, told me that the same thing that happened to me and my truck, happened to him and his truck last night. Some motherfucker broke into it at the transmission shop and stole EVERYTHING out of it... except for the CB radio. WHAT THE FUCK IS IT WITH PEOPLE AND STEALING OTHER PEOPLES SHIT?!!?!?! I swear to GOD that is the most rediculous thing in the world. We work for a living, especially myself, I work my ass off to make money so I can buy myself some nice stuff. It might not necessarily be stuff that I need, but stuff that I want. But I don't give a shit it is my money and I can do with it as I please, and when assholes like that come around and steal shit from people like myself so they can get for free what I busted my ass for to earn, it just pisses me off. There are a few things that really burst my bubble and that is one of them. If I ever caught someone stealing anything outta someones car like that, I don't care how big they are or how bad they could beat me, I'll fucking lose my temper and go ape shit on them. le0pard had a nice stereo, nice amp and 4 12" speakers in the back of his blazer. Of course they didn't steal his CB radio which doesn't make sense to me because it is the easiest thing to steal, most accessable, and worth about as much as the stereo.
On other topics I feel like I've been running around trying to chase shadows, but have now only just realized it. I hate feeling like this, but I do it to myself. I allow myself to start living this fantisy dream that I want to one day live out, but realize more and more day after day that it'll never happen. The chances of it are so slim under the circumstances, but I want it so bad I'd do anything for it, yet it is not under my control, not my say in what happens most the time with these.
It's 12:00 right now. I am debating on wheter I should finish up my MSE studying for the day, of finish it off tomorrow. If I finish tonight then I can start on tomorrows studying earlier and be ahead at the end of the day so I can get some sleep tomorrow night before my exam. *sigh* I kinda have to now that I think about it because I need to spend that sleep time doing my dynamics homework that is due Friday as well. Oh fucking well. Today has just been a terrible day and I seem to be cursing a lot on my LJ entry. Goddamn I am tired.